falling into years

2008-06-16T09:51:00.001+08:00

人生是用一整杯的苦涩，去交换一颗幸福的糖果。

2008-06-08T01:59:00.002+08:00

My last entry:
I want to watch sex and the city with sylvie, wy and fanny dearies. CHECK
I want to cry when I watch it. CHECK
I want to work and love.CHECK(work not love)
I want to live a life. CHECK

I will say, knowing what you want would mean:
Moving in a direction that leads you there, EVENTUALLY(with a couple of detours).
(if you don't lose your meaning and purpose in the start)

I have achieved all the above, almost all. IN 18 DAYS.

But, I lost track in the realms of deep thought, my desire for love.
the big L.O.V.E word, which drives people, smart or not, into insanity and deep deep wells of sugar-coated misery.
And I know that is the cynic speaking.

This entry was building up for 2 weeks. With pieces of it forming when songs play through my commuting journey. Some, after speaking to Sam. Time with Wy,Sylvie, Fanny. Others, just reflections and memories. The movie: Sex and the city. People around me that bring the big L.O.V.E into life.

And in case you wondered, how the show was.
It was great. Like a pro-longed movie, concised tv series, with the classic happily-ever after(rarely will happen in real life) ending.

It made me laugh and then cry, and while you are busy holding in the tears. It shakes the tears right out with a new bout of laughter.
That order, should be the way life is.

These times are so uncertain
There's a yearning undefined
And people filled with rage
We all need a little tenderness
How can love survive in such a graceless age
And the trust and self-assurance that lead to happiness
They're the very things we kill, I guess
Pride and competition cannot fill these empty arms
And the work they put between us,You know it doesn't keep us warm
Lyrics from Sex and city OST, The heart of the matter/India Arie

The four girls(never too old to be one), are atypical stereotypes of females (mostly in US<-not Sg). And the classic template for female friends, I love the dramatic flair and ting to it, so I watch it with the three friends I consider the closest to the movie. But I couldn't fit any of us completely into the shadow of any of the girls, though there was some resemblance. Each one of us, are Carrie in our own life, lead roles. Though it may seem to me that one could fit in the role of the characte, it is unlike the movie perspective: Like I would be the Charlotte in Sylvia's Carie movie, the same way Wenying is Miranda in Fanny's story. Everyone, a Carrie going on for a search of three friends who stayed through like Charlotte, Miranda and Samantha. Then with girlfriends, we search for 2 main things: Labels and Love. One conviction, I plead complete guilt for the relentless pursue of. (But I insist it's not a princess-thing/ mentality.) [Both, a luxury item, a good to have. Not die, without. 得之我幸、不得我命。]
ALL that IS prep talk, and exactly what I preach to myself daily(with little success)

And from all today, I realise something I learn about love, my love.
If I EVER fall, it MUST be a potential heartbreak. That would be the difference between love and not-love. In this graceless-age, the worst would probably be loving for the sake of loving. Like many of my peers I've seen, who would break-up for reasons that will make friends laugh, and not break-up for reasons that will make friends cry.

But actually I almost know I am incapable of LOVE, or at least my idea of love.
[犹如火种般带领着迷失的飞蛾、放弃生命的燃烧。
可惜，放纵不是我的个性。
可能是血液里少了飞蛾的勇气、脑中往往会在行动前闪过飞蛾燃烧殆尽的结果。
那会瓦解一切的冲动，以一整桶的冷水的冰冷泼醒我那未完成的白日梦]
Written 3 years ago, which now seemsinteresting, and very apt for describing my true bare self. And my very logical, analytical approach to love.

I had many near death experience, results of my own decisions. I realise, now that I appreciate the heart beneath my skin that beats. My heart is mine, or the so better, when it stays in me, unshattered. True to steel, I love myself more than anyone else, and I remain unconvinced that I could love or put someone else in my beating heart.

清楚的知道，自己不是天上璀璨夺目的烟火。从不那么耀眼，也不曾灿烂。
灵魂的极限就是只能迅速燃烧的花火。
渺小、所以只能温暖把它握在手心的持有者。
尽管如此，也会再在转眼间烧尽、只余一缕轻烟的遗憾。

But I love you guys, Sylvie, WY, Fanny, with however possible it is for me. For being my friends so close to the perfect friends ever, even though I never make the grade.

troubled..

2008-02-19T17:18:00.002+08:00

eh, recently i signed up for a job as an extra in TV commercials...its ad-hoc based. Thought it wld be interesting so im giving it a try. Then suddenly i got this call frm a company called CreateTalent again...they called me last year in Dec regarding an arrangement for an interview with me sort of thing...said that they want to sign me up as a free-lance model..btw, they sort of found me on the street lah...I rejected them the other time when they called but called again 3months later...And this time they are offering me a job as a model in TV commercial/s....according to wad they say...there are many commercial jobs available now...I rejected them again. After i hang them up, i realised that i was rather stupid coz im giving up a modelling opportunity in a TV commercial for an Extra job...lol, sounds soooo extremely stupid...
shld i consider the model job??? guess my mum wun agree to it leh....how? but my mum agrees to let me be an extra wor....lol. sigh....

Anw, gonna meet jeanie soon..hee. am looking forward! =D

wy

2008-02-04T12:41:00.001+08:00

Didn't expect my smiley face would lead to more posts on our blog...hah...it seems like the blog is coming back to life!..=p Anws....i'm unemployed now....

2008-02-01T19:28:00.000+08:00

got cramp...stuck at home again..haha

wy

2008-01-29T20:54:00.000+08:00

Am starting to fall in love with tanya's voice. interestingly, an english educated singer in the mandopop circle. love her lyrics quite alot. very poetic, very true and very life.
走过的路
作词--蔡健雅作曲--蔡健雅
曾拥有过的这一切都可能在一瞬间全都消失
曾最让我感动的事都可能经过时间而被遗忘也许我过得不够认真
曾经我相信只有他是我在这世界上最爱的人
但相信不代表永恒人总会有喜新厌旧的时刻
也许我不懂想要的爱也许因为不懂才一再的受伤害
直到现在走过的路
有些心酸辛苦但至少有些小幸福
爱过恨过走过的路
很多感触或许在一个人散步时心中还会回顾
只希望自己能走出片天空勇敢的走到未来

Realised that I only like things I can relate to, is this the face of human beings or is it my pain selfishness? I, like tanya, seems to be in similar predicaments. I love chinese, really do, yet am stuck to a life of english education. Moreover, recently being in contact with yuyin from the past, and PRC students in school. I realised how much of my language slipped out of my system. An entire part of me, once seen as extremely important, left me. Perphaps again that is just as life is/was/were. completely out of control.

Been starting to read blogs again. And finally glad now that when i click the "bloggie" link on my igoogle home page, I see new updates on the blog. I used to always wonder if i was the only one visiting the blog regularly for updates. So wy's reply to me was uplifting.
someone told me before that to be thinking of someone and to have the someone think of you back at the same time is almost impossible. There's actually some statistics done on it, but I glad I managed to hold on to the 0.000something %. Sad as it may seem, the blog we started back then is now the only link between the 5 of us.
This link brought by some sad news today. wy's struggles in her life, are things I can understand quite throughly. I must say there are similarities between us. We are afterall, one who yearn deeply, but show little on the surface. Yearnings may represent dreams, but dreams may be all but hopeful remains of what could have been.
Rambling in riddles again. I could go all philosphical, but ultimately I know that I hope for both of us the best. And for her to be happy. and me too.

Those were the days, days of sarcasm< in the nice sense, days when the future seems bright and merry. the blog was started 2 years back, then I would have never guessed the way my life is now mapped out. mapped out completely out of my map. Future holds much unknowns. And I'm always wondering what would be if I didn't choose this path. will i be happier. ask yourself that too dear? though it might seem to carry little purpose.
j->blogged on myspace pg... jiayou wy!

2008-01-29T18:54:00.000+08:00

好久没在这写日记了。。。。
过去两年来一直都在忙碌中度过，似乎已经忘了给自己时间对自己的所作所为反省反省。最多也不过是一些表面上的反省。。。我发却我变了很多。。以前常常做事都很认真，觉得每件事一定要做得最好。。因此我总会非常非常努力地去盼到。但现在的我，连努力是什么种滋味都已忘记了。。我光会为了不必要的面子问题或成就问题不停地往前冲。。但是到了最后我什么都做不好。。真的什么也做不好。。。感觉运气特别差。。这两年来除了交了一帮不是很熟的朋友外，心智并没有成熟到。。翻读过去自己写的作文时，还会感叹以前的自己怎么会那么快消失得无影无踪。。。过去的思想观念到哪里去了？？现在的我变得越来越庸俗。。是个完完整整没什么用的人。。真令我自己难过。。连那种在爬起来的力气都没有了。。过去的我，无论学什么乐器，似乎都有一种很神奇的力量让我很快就上手。。现在我什么都学不好。。。两年前初到学校的古筝团还以为可以继续‘展示’我的琴艺。。(haha, coz i regarded it as my only 'displayable' ability..)可是从那时候开始，我就‘沦落’到筝三。。是个很大的打击也是个很令我愤怒的事情。。。嗨，怎么说呢。。。就好像小鸟被剥夺了在天空飞翔的机会。。直到现在，我的琴艺都退步了。。因为根本不用进步吗。。。我都想把古筝丢掉了。。。姑且不论古筝的事，我的钢琴也在这两年内被忽略了。现在正在补救，可是偏偏得不到老师的谅解。。平平批评我。。就好像我真的一无是处似的。。嗨，令到我非常烦恼。。

所以说，我书读不成，琴s练不好， ‘脑’也没精到。。lol。正如jeanie has said...我连怎么讽刺人都不会了。。真悲哀。。这两年真是把我搞垮了neh...

不知道为什么我还要回去那个学校参与演出。。不过这也好，让我再一次体会恩段一绝其实是好的。。我不要在回去了。。。以后我的生活不会再被那个地方搅乱，我要从新找回以前的自己。。。。。。

part two....
jeanie....how's life?? noe u r buzy... but the rest...i have no idea...sigh.. am beginning to feel the gap btw us...sort of miss the times in schl...wld rather be 'feng ci-ing' u right now...haha. anyway, im sure gonna find you on the day of release of results...hee. i seriously dread meeting my schl-mates...dun really noe why...juz dun feel like being with them..(ahem, do i sound abit like a loner??)haha...

sigh, feeling like a loser right now...have accomplished nth at all...no pleasant feelings for my results though i managed nt to screw up in any of the papers...juz din feel like i will do well...esp in such a lousy schl...no no, perhaps i shld juz say that the schl n me doesn't match each other, it is a jinx-ed place for me..lol.

anw, i hope all of us can do v well in the A's and stay happy.=D
wy

2008-01-28T00:13:00.000+08:00

;P<- who did that.. so glad to see someone blogging though...
cancelled friendster acc oneday, thought it was too crowded....
cancelled facebook, thought it was too complicated...

started myspace.... a page for random rambles:
http://www.myspace.com/raining_random_rambles
how's life going by, my frens?
recently have been slacking quite a bit... thinking quite alot. ..
miss you all more than quite alot.
will we lose contact eventually? getting alarmingly worried!
I love you all! I do...

ps: sylvie dear, gotta give you that present;)

2008-01-25T23:54:00.000+08:00

2007-12-07T01:14:00.001+08:00

又开始看小说了。只是字里行间的爱情似乎比现实中的更为温暖一些。那些在文字中行走的灵魂，尽管也会疼痛，却不那么清晰，总是模糊的，只是淡淡的痕迹。刻骨的疼痛只能是缘于现实。而那种淡淡的喜悦却如此的真实，有时甚至会是疯狂而不留余地的。是很羡慕可以居住在文字里的灵魂，疼痛得随性，喜悦得随性。只是我们都不是能够将生活演绎成文字的人。

2007-09-13T01:53:00.000+08:00

发现忙碌并不是有效麻木的方法。从开学到现在，人生开始由空白到了一种狂风扫落叶的忙碌。几乎没有空隙，坐下来思考。能入脑的只有一个又一个赶不完的DEADLINE 。然后发现平凡，庸碌是种简单的幸福。每天回家，会开心地听着轻快的歌曲，一面微笑。
可是，人累了会休息。接踵而来的就是沉思。而这小小的缝隙会让那些被遗忘的恐惧、寂寞、悲伤像染料一样的将单纯的生活染成一片灰色的迷惘。

我想我依然没有变。潜在的我不满着目前的生活。该放下的身段，过往、谎言、骄傲，仍会出现在生活的每一转角。我仍会在人多的地方，感到寂寞。或许应该这样说吧，我又再次闯进一个我不属于的世界。
这个学院充满了梦想、和希望。这群人很单纯、很天真，有梦想，有冲劲。刚好，就是我所没有的一切。虽然，他们没有深想未来，却有着无限憧憬。而我呢，标准的麻木、心死、一个没有梦的人，活在这梦想盎然的土地，很可笑，很唐突、亦很痛苦。在这个于自己如此对比的空间，但白说我连呼吸都觉得痛苦。可是，我依然努力，努力生活，努力从头开始。在踏出第一步后，我便知道不能后悔，只能咬牙走完。我试过后悔，所以我知道现在所受的根本无算什么。当然，偶尔还是会忍不住埋怨。

学院真得很大，因为我常一个人走。上课，下课，午休。找不到频率相同的知音，疲倦了肤浅、表面的“朋友”。我想经历了很多，我对朋友有了重新的定义，不想要一群酒肉朋友，那只会让我乏力面对凸现出来的寂寞。

为什么，会寂寞? 是闲着无聊的无病呻吟吗？可能是吧！看了一本美国学生的日记。才发现很多人面对的即使是更可怕的种族歧视，死亡。可是寂寞，并不是我所想要得。这两个字听起来好浪漫，但深陷于寂寞沼泽中，这种浪漫是华丽的包装着一支支腐虫，腐蚀了生活中所有的颜色，一切归于黑白。

这两年的经历，自己从客观的角度分析，根本比鸿毛更轻更轻的事迹。我可以了解，但不能体谅别人对它的轻视。这种轻视，曾让我受伤，因为那是我的世界。就像一孩子不见了唯一的熊熊，而哭天呛地一样。那或许是一件很小很小的事。但那是他的全世界。在人类的世界，不是每样事，都能用实际轻重来衡量，每个人都有自己的小小世界。所以我会用像谈论国家大事的方式来提起我的过往。我想在这一切之后，我想要一个可以呼吸的地方。一个提供温暖、依靠的人。一个坚定停留、不动摇的理由。当然，那是比LV, PRADA , 更奢侈的奢华。

2007-09-13T01:52:00.000+08:00

不知不觉，习惯了早上喝咖啡，夜里喝牛奶。习惯了早上用清苦的沸水唤醒胃的知觉，晚上用香甜的沸水安眠胃的浮躁。因着胃囊的感觉安排生活，从日出到日落。只习惯沸水的温度，从苦到甜。

曾经以为，孤独比寂寞更深沉。沦陷于寂寞里，方知寂寞比孤独更难熬更令人疲惫。孤独不需熬，没有尽头的路只能无限忍受着走下去。而寂寞总是折磨人至疲惫不堪，又带着更深的叹息浸入新的梦境。疲惫是每一次梦醒后的叹息累积的重量，梦是寂寞开的花，寂寞繁盛梦所以多且频繁，而疲惫是花落之后结的恶果。

不知不觉，习惯了白天在阴影里发呆，傍晚在街上看霓虹闪烁。习惯了黑白颠倒，昼伏夜出，像个幽灵游荡或者短暂停留。习惯了黑暗的亮度，怕强烈的光线刺伤了眼，怕刺伤的眼会不知不觉流泪。

曾经以为，孤独比寂寞更有价值。寂寞愈深的时候，方才明白比价值更令人在意的是感觉。只剩下一种虚无的感觉时，任何价值都变得虚无。虚无是感受分明却触摸不到的空洞，空洞衍生的沉默冬夜的空气一样的冰寒。而沉默被称为言论，冰寒被称为温度。虚无，这个矛盾的极致，是寂寞最后的感觉。

不知不觉，习惯了撑起雨伞走在雨里，穿上风衣走在风里。习惯了让无意飘入伞下的雨淋乱了头发，让无意穿透纤维的风吹湿了睫毛。习惯了深夜三点用失眠折磨神经，下午三点用空虚饥饿细胞。失眠和饥饿交错的十字路口，迷失缘由感染了一种自虐情绪。据说自虐是寂寞国度流行感冒的特征

不知不觉，习惯了双臂环抱的温度，左手牵着右手的温柔。习惯了午夜时分耳轮和指尖冰凉的摩擦，熟悉的咖啡牛奶气味弥漫停滞的空气中，自己呼吸。习惯了对着镜子自己欣赏。满足的微笑的背后隐藏了一种自恋情绪。据说自恋是寂寞国度最时髦的病菌。

不知不觉，习惯了咀嚼喜欢的文字，呼吸熟悉的感觉。习惯了无病呻吟，把无聊演绎成一种情调，时光将生活消磨得乏味。不知不觉中，寂寞病变成一种癌症。

曾经以为，不会被寂寞打败。一个人的梦里，方知寂寞是一种瘾，戒不掉。

CRASH!!

2007-08-03T23:47:00.000+08:00

sighs... the blog is DEAD!!!! why no one blog one....
ok i accept and understand that EVERYBODY is so busy. SO i shall sit here and rattle on to myself.
Life goes on as usual, and after many attempts I have still not been able to revive the tagboard.. will try harder later...
If in any case of sheer good luck, anyone of you see this entry, and the tagboard is back pls tag!! I think as the year progress in tremendous speed(to u guys) and at crawling rate(to me) it will have to become sadly, a major means of communication. I mean see its not even PRELIMS(don't throw that at the screen, it can't hit me!) and NO ones blogging.

in anycase, my school start on the 13th. wish me luck. I fear the worst.
Ps: shall go back to fixing that tagboard

2007-04-26T23:40:00.000+08:00

Life is unfair, the world is unfair....
I can't help but to feel that life is totally unfair and only to me....Many things happened lately forced me to accept the cruel reality. I hate the feeling, i juz hate it....I dun feel carefree anymore....i dun feel like the Fanny i used to be....Its hard for me to accept all these at a go....Argh.....I'm getting immune to the irky feeling...somehow it feels like this feeling will get stronger and stronger.....so strong that i won't feel anything. Juz as i felt everything is going well....horrible incidents start to happen....too abrupt for me to accept....They juz kept happening...non-stop...i'm irrated, frustrated, scared.....can it juz STOP......
I can't take it anymore!

on the verge of crying

2007-04-25T17:51:00.000+08:00

i wanna say, that im feeling lost
i wanna say, that im feeling lost...
i wanna say, that im such a failure
i wanna say, that i needed encouragement not consolation.
i wanna say: 'leave me alone...'
i wanted to cry, but i was supposed to celebrate with them.
i want to quit, but i dun wanna be a quitter..
i really really want to cry.
im really lost.
im feeling really depressed.
im on the verge of crying, but i hate to appear like a weakling even though im one...
i need to pour out all my sorrows to someone but cldnt tink of who to talk to...
i really wanna escape frm this ugly world...
i carn even manage myself, why let me manage others?
i dun need that glorifying moment
coz i know i dun deserve it.
juz let me be...i dun wanna hear any comments frm the rest...
why am i always making mistakes even though i have spent so much effort in it.
why am i a;ways the one
why am i always disappointing people even though i have tried my best...
or have i even tried my best??
why am i not happy even when everyone around me is rejoycing?
why am i not given the chance to rejoyce with everyone esle??
what am i doing? why am i on the earth creating not happiness but problems?
i feel like a total rubbish, a total dirt, a total failure.
dun congratulate me anymore, i dun wish to fake anymore smiles...
dun praise me anymore, it will only make me feel worse.
after all these years, i realise i really hate this thing...its as if it is the jinx of my life...frm the scoldings i get last time, to the regrets it has brought me...i dun wanna touch it ever again...but can i??
carn i even choose wad i wanna do?
i really wanna find an exit to all this unhappiness. i know the only way is to change myself, my character...
maybe i shld speak less and listen more...maybe i shld hide myself frm the rest...
maybe i shld give up on the things im holding on to too tightly....
i think i shld juz give up..
yar. i shld...
im juz a coward. dats all.

// surprises //

2007-04-07T20:43:00.000+08:00

Hey gals.
Thank you all for the sweet msgs and wishes on my birthday! =)Had a great day because i noe im remembered by you guys. =) Thank you jeanie for the BIG BIG bouquet of flower! i love the 'purple rose'!!! It is still alive on my table u noe?! haha, im gonna keep it alive for as long as possible.

On the day of my birhtday, i received presents frm so many pple =D hee. happy! Lisi is so sweet lar, despite being in a different schl, she passed me a present through janice.=D thank you lisi!! The second present of the day was frm wanxuan, my gz pres. Nxt, gt a hand-made friendship band frm yingjie!(my classmate). it has been such a long while ever since i last received a friendship band.haha. shall treasure it.=) Den, i gt this musical box frm my clique in Nj. hmm, tink its the very first time dat i receive a musical box. Nxt nxt! my class sang me a birthday song suddenly during math lesson. haha. my face turned so red...sigh. carn help it...tink it was sooo embarrassing...den my math teacher somemore said: 'come, all the boys in class give her a kiss!' lol. i was like, 'diao'... lol.

Went for gz rehearsal in lt5 in the afternoon. played horribily. but thank goodness my friend said i looked rather confident on stage. hee. and my face didnt turn red on stage. hee. right after the rehearsal, wanxuan told me to go to some class room for a meeting with our teacher-in-charge. I went with her without any doubts, thought the teacher was gonna give a review of our rehearsal's performance... when i reached the door of the class, guess wad i saw! my CO friends + gz mates actually bought me a cake and gave me a surprise bdae celebration. haha. as u all noe, i have always thot dat im the very smart kind...and dat i could guess wad others intend to do...i thot i wun be surprised in anyway...sigh, guess my intelligence level is dropping...sigh. haha, im too ego hor...'slap myself'.

Den hor, when i went back for gz prac, my gz teacher actually bought me a 'green-tea flavour ice-cream'!! bt it has reduced to a pile of muddy cream when i received it.lol. so dat concluded my first day of being 18.

On 5th april, received this small minatured guzheng frm my gz junior. =) its really very cute. den got choc cookie and choc candy frm mt classmates. =) and the class gave me this card which has all the bdae msgs frm everyone in class.=) anw, jfyi, making a bdae card for the bdae pple is a custom in my class. hee. gt gz prac again in the afternoon. i have it almost everyday lar. including saturdays...den gt a surprise celebration organised by my teacher-in-charge lor. haha. becoz 5th april is the bdae of another guy in gz so shun4 bian4 celebrate together. and so the whole gz tuan sang us a bdae song with dizi as accompaniment.hee. coz as u noe, or if u remember, my ou3 xiang4 in is the dizi player, the si4 ge, remember remember?? lol. nvm. dun bother abt me. im being hua-chi for a while...hee. while eating the cake, this guy in percussion, my junior, and the one whose bdae falls on 5thapril, starting playing with the cake lar. played with the cream...and i gt attacked by the cream lor..bt i managed to take revenge by 'colouring' his face with cream too. haha. tong4 kuai4.!!

Anw, i went out with seying ytd after i went tomb-sweeping. we planned to watch movie but had nth in mind. so we any any how picked a movie called 'Cages'. lol. i think we were sooo spastic. haha. coz we both dun noe wad it was abt, so we starting guessing the genre of the movie. when we pass by the poster section in the cinema, we were like, 'dun see dun see!!'. coz we din wan to spoil the 'surprise'. btw, both of us guessed dat it wld be a 'scary movie'. in the end, guess wad..it is a 'philosophical type' can! lol. its even a singapore production. lol. we both din understand a single thing in the movie lor. haha.wad a waste of money..

alright dats the end of my entry. i will most probably update 1 mth later. so till den,miss me!!

wy

2007-03-28T01:38:00.000+08:00

I AM SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
to all reading this I WANNA TYPE IN BLOCKSS!!!!!!!!! COZ I CAN'T HELP IT!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! i really really wanna scream!!!!

but sanity and sense sets in, i can't do that it is like 1am. I can't call you gals to scream at... not when i noe you have class early tmr....... so I calm myself down after JUMPING for a whole 5mins, and i typing it HERE!!

SISTERS! I GOT into LASALLE!!!! yay... the portfolio presentation, i thot was a complete flop, wasn't so bad after all! they said to wait a month for the reply, but I got the letter of acceptance today, today!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Finally, that marks an end to my schooless days. I am so happy.

There's finally a day when the sun shines brightly on me. Today, or rather yesterday was a great day. I am happy truly and sated, something I haven't felt this intensely for a long long time... Be happy for me.

Ps: I really really wanna thank ALL of You for being there when i was going mad doing the portfolio. LOVE YOU ALL>>>

time is running out!!!!!!!!!!

2007-03-21T00:16:00.000+08:00

i'm so dead... deadline: friday.
interview: sat 9.30am audi ,grp interview of 6, review of portfolios on the spot...

LIFE can't be any greater..... i still have another like 3 pieces of fashion drawings in weird pen( primitive stick with weird tip) to do.... GREAT!!!!!!!!!!
i'm so freaking out............................................

work done so far:
1. Still life: tea in the evening

2. Study of I.D: In-COMPLETE

3.Study of I.D: Feeling air-borne

4. Observational study: If i were bald

5. Still life: Innocence

6.still life: Cavalry

7. Portrait: My sister

wish me luck!

2007-03-13T21:26:00.000+08:00

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I think i'm going crazy.

2007-03-04T21:07:00.000+08:00

thanks evyone....
recently, i'm in state of shock. how to go about explaining it, i have no idea. All i know is that i will try very very very hard to achieve my new year resolutions and insists on being me.
okay, dont bother if u don't understand any of this blabber.. as, well it's juz some nonsense blabber.
in anycase, this entry is to tell u all to check out this pg, if well like me u are bored and stress. insist on reading on, it's quite entertaining.

http://post.baidu.com/f?kz=172651265

jeanie dearie... love you all

2007-02-25T22:44:00.000+08:00

hey everyone....dun be shocked when u see our blog in this state....So sorry for messing the links and tagboard....Jeanie asked me to delete the valentine thingy and i did. But due to whatever reasons aft deleting that...everything was in the mess!!! I'm a computer idiot so i couldn't manage to get it back...So can someone rearrange it...So sorry abt it and Thanx!!!! Muacks

Shall post some pictures...Oh and WY, i decided not to take down the photo!!!!=p

Look at the clouds...

My Lovely cousins...(The Sisters)

And Lastly...

this brightens up my day!!=p

giant squid

2007-02-23T17:24:00.000+08:00

this one is even better. although its only of human size,it uses their glowing arms to blind and stun their prey.Thats because they have this lemon size light-producing organs on the ends of two of its arms called photophores. sooo interesting...

This thing is sooo long! it weighs 450kg and the eyes are as big as dinner plates leh!

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they got sharp hooks on their suckers eh....so amazing...

2007-02-21T23:17:00.000+08:00

2007-02-18T09:11:00.000+08:00

Hey everyone!!!!!!!

happy Happy New Year!!! Must rmember to collect more ang pows yo!!!:))))
Hahahs!! had such a great time at Jeanie dear's house on Friday..and a-hem...fanny really kinda shocked me!!:))

Yes..and here's da jie wishing Wenying to love physics more and more, have a better memory ( so as to remember wang dong cheng's name) and of course..most importantly!!! get her direction straight la....(guys or girls..WY, must choose one la!)
And as for Jeanie dearie...I wish that inspiration will flow freely so that you can have a shen2 shou3 and get into Laselle as you wish!!! May you and TongTong love each other more and more!!!!!:))))
Hehehs..Ah Tian ah.. let me wish you success in Skill A-Z for all your Science SPA..but the main point is....nalgene bottle!!!!!!!:))))) Hope that light will somehow shine on him and thus..thou shalt be enlightened. :)))
And yea...Fanny xiao mei...don't be too stressed!! Wish that you will dance brilliantly and superbly!! (Don't practise feilunhai's cheesy dance moves le la...if not all of us may need to rub ointment on our tummies from all the laughing!!!) Hahah!!!:))

But yea..most importantly,this will be a super important year for all of us ya? Hope that w'll all jiayoua and do well for As..plus! Have a clear direction for the future!! And that Jeanie will have a brand new start at Laselle!!*^^* hehehs, but not forgetting wish that all you peeps will meet your Wang Dong Cheng/Wu Zun/Xiao Gui/ Aaron Yan... equivilant!! (see ya...Fanny! you have soo mnay lei, I also cant rmb le!) Have a happy happy year ahead with all your loved ones!!!:)))))

A Thousand huggies,
Sylvia:)))

2007-02-13T23:01:00.000+08:00

Heyy people...after some tedious and frequently off-tangent discussion with jeanie...(and non-existent fanny ) online...we've finally decided on where to got his friday!!! yayay!! Arn't you guys happy????:)) Hahahs.:)
Yea, so here's it!*^^*

Date:16th Feb, this friday!!!

Time: to be confirmed later la. I have absolutely no idea what time my sch's gonna end!!!!!!-.-||| But fellow early birds can congregate tgt first!!!!

Venue: Bugis..*^^* Can eat pasta mania!! Oh ym goodness!! We're always going there to eat when we meet!! haahahs!!*^^*

But if there's any other places you all wish to go..we can juz change the venue la:)

And yes..most importantly, even though it's Jeanie dear who requested me to type this notice...nonethless...she has left a message.

"tell em dont come.. then go jump singapore river hao le"

ya. Basically you guys get the idea la hor?:) Heheh:)
Have a goodnight and we'll meet soon!!*^^*

Sleepy,
Sylvia^^

2007-02-13T16:11:00.000+08:00

I love you..you love me..we are one big family!!!
Lalallalaaaaaaaa!!!*^^*

It's Valentines' Day tomorrow!!!:))))
Hehehes...so I came specially now to spread my love to all my BESTEST girlfriends lei!!!!!!!:)))
Hehhess..:DDD

OKies...so pls rmb to keep the 16 th free hor!!:))

We're supposed to wear our home clothes tml..(sylvia's still thinking hard! Grr!)
And anyway...I went shopping with Cheryl at far east and Winne dear at Vivo yesterday!!:)))
Hahha...cheryl and I bought shoes!! :))
hehehs..*happy happy*:)))
YUpz..and winne gave me a super cuteee shou4 bao1..hehes...it's hanging at my phone now...and sylvia's considering if she should put back her lil balckie face and let the both ding dang make friends..=SSS

ok la. I have tonnes of work to do le..cya all soon!:)))

Love,
the mang2 nv:)))

2007-02-10T22:32:00.000+08:00

Whhheee!!

Im super hyper now! And it seems like Sylvia is gonna flood the blog again...*Ooops!!*
But I know you guys absulotely lurrrveeee to hear me spread my love to all of u right??? Waahhahass!!! *prepares plastic bag to puke..esp so for WY dear!* :)))

Hehehs. Anyway it ahs been such a long awaited weekend... finally!!!!!!!!!! No dreadful notes to accompany me through the dark, quiet, miserable lonely weekend night. :) sighs, it's so qi1 liang 1 la la?:( when all u can hear is your restless breathing and the cold chilly winds howling away..*Boooooooo*>.<

Anyway, I discovered an interesting word today!!! xD
So...masticate=chew. (or am I too slow and u all knew it looong ago??)
Hahaha, so next time u guys can act chiiimmmm for a while.x)
While eating at the hawker next time..maybe we can say..
" my mama says we must masticate our food slowly to ensure a healthy digestive system"
Hehes! I didnt know they had such weird substitutes for such simple words.
REminds me of the time during higher chinese class..and we learnt that mou2 zi3=eyes..and Jeanie and I were wondering real hard like who on earth will write and say.."Oh...she has beautiful mou zi!!" -.-|||
Hehehs..=DDD (actually I've yet to chance upon any writer who writes that, so Jeanie... must remember to inform me when u read that hor!! x)) Hehehs!!

OK la...i need to reach sch at 730am tml lo. Must savlage my panda eyes.
Hehehs=) Cya all soon!

GoodyNItes,
Sylvia x)

2007-02-10T09:28:00.000+08:00

Yeaayyyy!!:)

Chinese New Yea is coming..have u guys gone to chinatown yet???? Waahhs, I've been wanting to go with my mum...but something unexpected always crops up at the last moment! *sighs!* Imagine the candy and peanus and bak kwa..wahahahass!! Hehehe, no la, actually I don't really like bak kwa la.*^^*

New year resolutions anyone? :))))

And anyway Fanny, do you know that VJ is having their newspaper and old clothes collection on saturday? WahhS!!!!! I'm gonna faint if there's nothing left for us to collect on sunday le!!! x(
Sylvia doesnt want to wake up early for nothing on a beautiful sunday morning!!!!!!!!!!

Bored,
Sylvia:)

ps) Anyway, have i told u guys that I'll have to move by latest next march? Boo!!!!!!! All the stupid dunno what procedures and signings have finally been cleared la( after who knows how long!).....Just when Jeanie dear has moved and is sooo near to my house!!!! Bahs!!!! x( x( x(
And it's sooo totally horrible to be moving when ur supposed to have this horrible major exam..=(
Murphy's Law must be at work...whatever can go wrong, will go wrong!!!!!x(

2007-02-07T19:21:00.000+08:00

Hellooo!!

Finally, it'd Wednesday!! The hellish week for me is finally over!! Grr. I had like econs and geog test today..and pls people..it's really not fun at all when ur weekend is packed and ur frantically studying for math and ur ending late everyday!!!>.< It's really crazy to put these two subjects tgt la! But anyway, Fanny, dont worry...evern though the only question left for our tutorial class is actually quite easy..no one really studied that part lo. =( I couldnt remember all the docklands part..and I've even forgotten what's the canary wharf used for..-_-|| And anyway, my angel is bad bad bad la. Actually our class's angels are bad. most of us didnt receive anything at all!!>.< Hehehs, I feel so lucky for my mortal. *thick skinned* =PpPP

Ok la, dont talk about all these le!!!:) So we confirm going out on the 16th right???:)))) Any plans?? Heheee..I think we should just find a nice place and talk*^^* and jeanie...I like your story!!:))) You've told me before a long long long time ago!!! And I really feel very sad for the three of them la...I think especially for feng. =( It's so apparent that the girl would not have gone with him if the other guy bothered to admit to how he felt!!=( BooBOo!

Rejuvenated,
Sylvia:)))

ps) Our blog so active now lei, the shitian ah.... I think perhaps she has flown to farfar away leeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
pps) The Dance Floor anyone???:)))) Hahah...go watch go watch!!*^^*

2007-02-05T20:58:00.000+08:00

HeyHey...everyone!! Wah, the blog is sooooo active!!Heehee, feel soooooo excited!=p Hmm....nice story, Jeanie, though its quite difficult read...Oh, and i see Ah Girl...not bad, vast improvement...Heehee...

Can't wait to meet u guys on the 16th!! But so sianz... our school got roadrun...Sylvia, sometimes i think the school have weird plans for us. A Roadrun on CNY celebration??? Well, it can help loose weight though...Oh, and the angel and mortal game...i only recieved a letter from my angel todae...quite sad but at least there's sth....And i had a horrible geog test todae....Spent my whole Sunday studying urban geog, and then it came out on the stuff i studied during my three period break b4 geog lesson. This is Ridiculous...Totally Rubbish...And Sylvia, Mr Elwin will put 4 question on the table and u r supposed to choose a question for the whole class...Well, we chose the wrong question so yar, there goes my geog essay...Juz like my DRQ, study and i dun see results...So demoralizing....Hmm....feel xtra stressed lately cause i'm going to noe whether i can continue soon. Hope my CT will write wonderful things abt me, i'm muz stay positive at allll times..Hahaha=p But still i want to continue moaning....I've got like 100o and 1 things to worry abt which explains why my white hair are springing out like nobody's business...Hiaz....Econs test this wed, on some rubbish multiplier effect, u tell me how to write a essay on that...Totally Rubbish...Pui...Ahh....the more i moan the worse it gets...Shall stop here....please forgive xiao mei here if u feel stress aft reading this post......=1

Valentine's

2007-02-04T23:07:00.000+08:00

Yoz..
is it illegal to blog 2 posts in a day? anyway if it is i don't care la.. perfect excuse to not do work... hee hee

btw, the whole blog seems to be in a very very valentine mood wor.... even "sui yuan" de wy also pasted up her "zhen qing ren" notice<- actually is i put one la.... but that's not the pt... i was looking thru my old com files(i.e. slacking), and found the online love story... not new to you all, but i wanted to post it up juz for valentine's sake... hee hee.... as for the rest of you, got valentine's day requirements don't forget to post it up!
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~~树~~
高中三年，交过五个女朋友，有一个女孩子，我很爱她，却迟迟不敢追，她没有美丽的面孔，没有娇好的身材，没有撩人的魅力，一个再也平凡不过的女孩子。我很喜欢她，真的真的很喜欢她。

喜欢她的单纯，她的直率，她的可爱，她的脆弱……

不追她的原因，也许是潜意识觉得平凡的她配不上我；也许是因为怕在一起后，一切好感都会消失；也许是怕外人的指指点点伤害了她；也许是觉得她会是我的，不急者为了她而放弃一切。

最后这个原因，让她陪了我三年，让她看着我和别的女孩子厮混了三年，让她心痛了三年。

她很想当一个好演员，但我却像一个苛刻的导演。我和第二个女朋友在厕所接吻，被她撞见，她尴尬的笑笑说：“Go on!”然后跑掉。第二天，她眼睛肿得像核桃一样，我故意不去猜想是谁让她哭成这样，嘲笑了她一天，她在所有人都回家后，在教室哭了起来，她不知练球回来拿东西的我，看了她一个多小时。

我的第四个女，一直很不喜欢她，有次她们两个吵了起来，我知道依她的个性不会去惹事，但我还是护着女朋友，她被我吼了一下后愣住，眼泪滑了下来，我无视她的眼泪，陪女朋友走出教室。

第二天，她依旧嘻嘻哈哈的和我开玩笑，我知道她很难过，但她不会知道我的心不比她好受。

当我和第五个女朋友分手的时候，我约她出去玩，玩了一天，我对她说：“我有事对你说。”她说：“真巧，我也有事要对你说。”“我和她分手了。”“我和他在一起了。”我知道“他”是谁，他追她也有一阵子了，是个蛮可爱的男孩子，活泼有趣，充满了热情，追她追得满城风雨。我不能表现自己的心痛，只能笑笑地恭喜她，但当我回到家，心中的痛楚强烈得令我无法承受，像有个千斤重的石头压在我的胸口，我无法呼吸，想大叫却又叫不出来，眼泪竟然滑了下来，我掩面大哭，多少次，我也看着她为了那个不愿承认的人掩面大哭。

毕业典礼时，我在手机上发现了一条简讯，这是十天前，我掩面大哭时传来的，只是我一直没有开过机。

“叶子的离开，是因为风的追求，还是树的不挽留。”

~~叶子~~
高中时，喜欢收集叶子，why？因为我觉得，一片叶子要离开它长期依赖的树好勇敢哦！

高中三年，我和一个男孩子很好，不算男女朋友那种好，是好朋友的那种好，但是，在他交第一个女朋友时，我学会了一种不该有的感觉，吃醋，心中的酸，不是一颗柠檬可以比喻的，那就像是100颗臭酸的柠檬，酸到不行。

他们只在一起两个月，当他们分手，我还记得掩饰自己心中的喜悦，但是一个月后，他和另一个女孩子在一起了……

我喜欢他，也知道他喜欢我，可是，他为什么总不追我呢？明明喜欢彼此，为什么不行动？每当他交一个女朋友，我就心痛一次，一次又一次的打击，让我不禁怀疑，是我一相情愿吗？不爱我，为什么要对我那么好？他对我的好，已经不是一个普通朋友可以做到的。喜欢一个人，好难过，我可以清楚的知道他的喜好，他的习惯，唯独他对我的感觉，我猜不透，难道要我这个女孩子去开口吗？

尽管如此，我还是想在他的身边，陪他，爱他，也许算是一种等待的行为，等待他回来爱我。就像每天晚上等他的电话，等他的简讯，我知道，就算他再忙，也会拨出一些时间给我。这样的等待，陪了我三年，等待是难熬的，是令人想放弃的，但等到的那一刹那，让人第二天会继续等下去。这样的难熬，这样的痛苦，这样的幸福，这样的矛盾，陪了我三年。

直到三年级下学期，高二的一个学弟喜欢上我，每天的热情追求，令我从一开始的拒绝，渐渐的愿意挪出心房的一些位置给他。他像一阵温柔而持久的风，撩拨我这片摇摇欲坠的叶子，到最后，我发现我已经不想只留一点点位置给这阵风，我知道这阵风，会带我这片伤痕累累的叶子，到更幸福的地方。

于是我离开了树，树只是笑笑，没有挽留。

“叶子的离开，是因为风的追求，还是树的不挽留。”

~~风~~
因为我喜欢的女孩叫叶子，因为她有一棵令她依恋的树，所以我要当一阵风，一阵呵护她的风。

第一次看见她，是高二我转来一个月后的事，个子小小的她坐在球场旁，一双眼凝视着同和我在球场的学长。

每天的社团时间，她总会坐在那里，一个人，和朋友，她的眼光依旧凝视着他，当他和女孩子打打闹闹，她的眼中有泪，当他看向她，她的眼中有笑。看她成了习惯，就像她爱看他。

有一天，她没来，我心中不由的焦虑与不安，我无法解释那种感觉，除了不安，还是不安，而且那血肿竟然也不在。

我冲出他们教室，躲在外面，看着学长骂她，她的眼泪，他的离去……

第二天，她依旧坐在球场边，看着他，我走过去，对她笑一笑，拿了张纸条给她，她先是惊讶的看着我，然后笑笑地收下。

隔天，她拿着纸条出现在我面前，然后离开。

“叶子的心太沉重，风吹不动。”

“不是叶子的心太沉重，是叶子根本就不想离开树。”

我回给她这段话后，她渐渐会和我说话，收我的礼物，接我的电话，我知道她喜欢的不是我，但我还是有毅力一定要让她喜欢上我，四个月内我告白了不下20次，每一次她都转移话题，但我还是不会放弃。

我决定要的人，我一定会给它追过来！

一直到不知道第几次告白，出了口，虽然知道她一定又会说别的事，但还是有一丝丝希望她的答应，没想到她都不说话，“你在干嘛？怎么不说话？”我对着话筒说。“我在点头。”“啊？”我不敢相信自己的耳朵。“我在点头！”她大叫。

我甩掉电话，匆匆披上一件衣服，上了机车，冲去她们家按门铃，当她开门的那一刹那，紧紧抱住她。

“叶子的离开，是因为风的追求，还是树的不挽留。”

question: yoz... touched not? of coz not, u all are cold-blooded.... anyway was just wondering abt the group of us, who would we become in a r/s? "shu" "ye" or "feng"?
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my valentine requirements:
muz be sweet, but not grossly expressive(金秀一）, talented, smart and dashing, and definitely not the overly noisy sort! ->泉!!!!

OKAY THAT'S WHEN YOU KNOW JEANIE DEAR IS SUFFERING FROM OVER-TV CRAZE!
au revoir,
jea

2007-02-04T17:09:00.001+08:00

Hey People!!!!!=)))

Wah, frankly I'm rather surprised to see our blog so actively running!! I thought that it has perhaps gone defunct or something! ;) Jeanie!!!!! Nice works...jiayou jiayou wor!!!:))))) And yes, I'm alrght with our sooo-much-anticipated outing on the 16th!!!!!!!:))) (hehe, our school is sooo unconventional lar, we're gonna have roadrun on that day!-.- on top of all thr cny celebrations) And do inform me of any updates on the cip thing:)

Basically don't ask me how's life for me nowadays, because I can now positively, certainly, absolutely that I HAVE NONE at the moment. I feel like some old horse plodding along the padi fields. Ok, don't ask me why horses work on padi fields (oxen do!) but that's just some image plodding across my mind. Imagine this poor old horse..who was once gallant and magnificent and free (Ok, that's an overestimation!), yet now, has been to reduced to a state of...hmmm...breaking down treadmill machine. -.-||| Ok, never mind, can just ignore me la. I don't think I'm typing any sense here...it's undeniably ridiculous. -.-|| Bahs!

(The continuation shall be below, there's sth wrong with my comp la, it can't stand people writing one whole long post at a shot!>.<) =)))

2007-02-04T17:08:00.001+08:00

Haha, and dear Wenying ah, I heard from dear Jeanie hor..that your darling dadong likes jia di lian lor! =DDD
Haahahss!!! And anyway, I thought you've always held onto ur belief of "sui yuan-ing"? =DDD Hahah!!! Didnt know you ahd so many expectations! Eh, but actually, you'll never know la, maybe I'll draw a longer list than you!!=P (people shy shy, dont wanna type it here la!) MOOHAHAHAHSSS!!!!!!!!!!! XDDDDD

Ok...hope to see you guys soon...do crap a little here whenever you guys are free la k?:)
And fanny, dont worry, normally the pot ( or the kettle or crow or whatsoever blackie) will not call herself black.
crap crap crap.
similar industries in the suburbs have attracting forces..can reap economies of agglomeration.
Just thought of that la.
But I think the same theory applies.
Similar people have "attracting" forces.:)
Crappy mortal. Crappy angel. :)

Hehe!!!
Sylvia*^^*

2007-02-04T12:55:00.000+08:00

Ciao! am feeling slightly deflated.... and well i dunno what to blog about... so i'll juz post up a few photos...
Portfolio piece No.1(below)

Ah girl...(above)

Yupz.. these are my works from last week... sighs, feeling a little odd, so gals muz meet up soon so we can re-charge each other's batt k?! JIA YOU...

-jea

Angel and mortal...

2007-02-04T11:15:00.000+08:00

Well, jeanie, i hate jie di lian can!! even a few days younger i also cannot take it! Let me tell you wad is my ideal bf. hee=DD
Firstly, must be taller then me by at least like 5cm. Must noe how to play piano, or any other instrument, must be v sporty, must be v smart and lastly must be charismatic!! heehee. I tink they dun really exist rite? lol, den i dun mind a gal who possesses these qualities...opps =o =p =D

Oh ya can be like meet up on the 16th of feb, the day of cny celebration in sch? den after the celebration maybe we go home change first den meet up somewhere in town?(or anywhere u all want lar.) we got to make up for the valentine day celebration.

I want to say a big thank you to jeanie poh who willingly accepted my invitation to take part in the cip programme. really thank you sweety!! and to sylvia, im sure you can come join us for cip once in a while! heehee, im so happy lar! will be able to see jeanie at least once a week nxt time! anybody esle interested in seeing me at least once in a week??

you-know-who-im

2007-02-03T17:28:00.001+08:00

hellooo everyone!!:)))

I've been super busy lately!!!! Gahs!!! I think school is just so horrible la! =( (omg, I'm startin to sound like wenying dear!) Hahah,and for all you people's info, Tj is also playing this college wide angel mortal game too!!!:)))) I have a super sweeettt mortal, but i think my angel is virtually non existent. (the SC makes it a point to make it girl-boy) but anyway, my mortals' still a girl la~!:))))

yups, anyway, wenying...I seriosuly don't think you can beat me lor....for the first six days that sch has re opened..i've been late for 4 times..:))) and that's like over the quota limit for the number of times you can be late per term!=PPPP Hehehe!!! =DDDDD

And u guys planning to do CIP ah...Jeanie!! Ruu sureee??????? *stares wide eyed!* Sighs...I would seriosuly like to join u guys too laaa...but hmmm...im not sure if I have the time..pls update me if u gus are duper confirmed to join k? :))
Anyway, Tj ha thi 6top 3 achievements write up that u have to do....and seriosuly, I'm still short of one la!:( Was thinking that I can perhaps engage in some out of sch activity or sth...(but then again...I don't want my whole write up to be abt community service la!=((((((() Hahhaass..anyway the tuition thingy sounds fun!:)))

BTW, i've just came back from doing this geog fieldwork at the CBD area...and seriously i feel like dying there....it's awfully tiring!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!=((((((( Sighs. Fanny have u done urs?:)
bleah..okies, i better get back to make good friends with my math tys now.....=((((
Jeanie....u ahve no idea how lucky u are~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!=DDDDDDD must jiayou looo~!!!!!!!!!! Must think of darling wu zun..then u can draw super nicer picturese!!!!!!!!*^^*

Sleepy,
Sylvia

---wy---

2007-01-31T22:13:00.000+08:00

Opps! sry, i created the google account with my email already.... erm, but the password is still the same.yup. and erm pls dun throw eggs at me if things go wrong...=p

My day started off by being late for schl, again. Its the third time already...i wonder what kind of punishment awaits me...sighz... And when i finally see my class, i was told that they have juz sort of started a 'angel and mortal' game with our junior class. hee. this reminded me of the old old days in PL when we used to play this very game amongst ourselves. Then, we had lockers to make use of for the passing of letters. So Fun! I really really miss those days. I got this sudden urge for time to flow back to the sec 1 and 2 days so dat i can see the sweet and innocent and pure smiles dat we once had...argh, i must really admit that im old already...keep toking abt the past...

Anw, back to present. My angel has a letter for me! there was a heart shape thingy made of straw attached to the letter. JFYI, my angel is a guy lar. But thats not the main point, the content of the letter is the jing4 bao4 one. lol. furnie little boy here...i carn believe my eyes when i finish reading the first sentence lor...haha. I told my friends that i've got a very 'interesting' letter and den they volunteered to read it aloud for everyone to hear. The situation of the first one who attempted to read it aloud was like this: "Hi! my dear wenying you may not know me, but i know you. when i see you at assembly, i...0_o.....!!" and she burst out laughing... and this exact situation happened to the second one who volunteered to read out the content. okok, shall not keep u all in suspense anymore...

the letter goes like this : "...when i see you at assembly everyday, i get so excited. i dream of you in my sleep. i will be watching you every now and everywhere. I will keep harm out of your way. (so sweet of him=)) There is onw way of seeking my aid That is to believe in yourself. and to believe that i am always there...(i think he really think he is an angel..)

Have fun in schl and gd luck! I will be watching you! everywhere you go, in class, in tutorial, in..... in the sun , on the bus... and when you reach home, i will be happily waiting for you. even when you read this i will be watching you!

your secret admirer from heaven..

(and den here comes the stupid qn.) P.S.: Are you a girl or guy?""

this young boy is so full of crap. lol, even fanny cannot win him lor...heehee
anw, shld i reply to his letter?? give me some suggestions bah. =p

to jeanie: the CIP activities i found:::
1) Event: Weekly Food Distribution Programme. Time: Every Saturday, 2pm Venue: Blk 4 Hougang Ave 4 Void Deck Remarks: We are serving up to 75 old folks and needy (Mainly Public Assistance (PA)) giving food and home delivery
Details :
This food distribution programme is running into its 6th year. It is taken care by Apex Radin MAS members and volunteers. Food purchase expenses are raise through fund raising projects and kind donations.For those who wish to start volunteering, this is a good place as the time commitment is low (1-2 hours weekly) and with hands on activities.Apex Radin MAS also organize ad-hoc projects quarterly or bi- annually. We have worked with special children in Chao Yang & Jervois and help out with day car and dementia centres for the agedFor all enquires, please e-mail to: khiho@singnet.com.sg

2)
Rainbow Connection Programme
Details :
Rainbow Connection Programme is a tuition cum enrichment programme which aims to provide appropriate social and academic support to primary 1 - 6 children from low-income families. Tuition in english and maths will be given on a 1 tutor to 1 or 2 children basis. Enrichment sessions comprises of activities conducted to facilitate better social skills and development in the children. The programme will be conducted on Fridays (7.30pm to 9.30pm) for P1 - 3 students and on Saturdays (10am to 12.30pm) for P 4 - 6 students. Volunteers need only choose either Friday or Saturday slots and not both.

more info can be found frm www.cip.org.sg

eh, i really hope to do some cip lar. and if u are interested (to see me at least once a week), erm pls indicate ur choice. =D

wy

2007-01-23T01:24:00.000+08:00

A very big thank you to all of you.
PS: wy you will probably cry buckets after reading this, but i still wanna include my diary entry for today here. "sorry!"
You gals have given me a lot in the past year, and I "wu yi wei pao", so I juzt wanna really say a big formal "THANK YOU" here.

P.Ps: misconception: my craze with dear wu zun is a major side-effect of my recovery. It is sorta like a change in character after a major event in life, sort of thing. (-.^) He is so SHUAI! But you all are the big big "gong cheng" k!
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It’s been a long time since, I felt so relieved and relaxed. A long time since, I can laugh aloud while reading the messages you gals leave online. I am starting to believe that happiness when shared, will return in folds.
I must admit that there are still times, when I can’t help but feel really down and bad. But, remembering the support and friends there for me in this past year, it is easy to recover instantaneously.

I am smiling as I type this, recently I have been bringing tong near PL for walks in the evening. Cliché as it sounds, but much has came back. Those were the days of insanity, laughter and tears. Sometimes I’ll walk, be laughing and tearing at the same time. Ignoring the stares I’m receiving for acting like one who escaped from woodbridge, I am very glad. For, my friends, I am finally facing up to the past, though really slowly, I am no longer escaping and hiding.

This, new me has become stronger and more courageous. I have become more cheerful and may this be the dawn of happiness for me.

-jeanie[^.^}

2007-01-22T21:06:00.000+08:00

Yoohoo Jeanie!!!! Welcome back...Wow, so glad that u r doing well now...=p Haha..i guess our efforts are all put off and Wu Zun has helped alot too!!! Well to welcome u back, i shall post some Wu Zun and Hana Kimi Pic....Ps: Jeanie, hope u enjoy....

Oh..and nice template!! Shall upload more next time!!

Xiao Mei
Fanny=p

2007-01-21T15:15:00.000+08:00

Yayyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!

I LOVVEEEE Jeanie dear to bits!!!!!!!!!:)))
Hahahs!! Finally eh...our dear jeanie is saying goodbye to all those horrible things!!!!
(i know i know!! it's all thanks to...haha..us!! Hahah..and of course wu zun!!!*^^*)
He's SOOOOOOOOO SHUAI!!!!!!^^
Yayayyyy!!!!!!:))))))
okies, i gotta go out...update soon soon!!:))))
Love you all!!!!*^^*

Kudos!
Sylvia:))

2007-01-21T02:30:00.001+08:00

Okay... hey you there! stop looking around. You did NOT click the wrong link, nor typed the wrong add. This is YOUR blog!

Well, in line with recent events, which HAVE caused a drastic change<- for the better i think;) in me. I decided that the previous gloomy/rotting/ancient/ominious template shall have to go. Let me re-introduce myself, I, jeanie poh have returned to earth and of coz, with the earth's resources returned to blogging.

Well, the moving is finally REALLY REALLY OVER! Thank god! And i am finally settling into my room, though i still spent like hours looking for little things. On top of that, please witness my plegde to attain my new year resolution.
I AM SO GOING TO GET
(1)HEALTHIER (2)HAPPIER (3)HARDWORKINGier
I WILL SO BID FAREWELL TO
(1)WEEKLY MC COVERAGE (2)DEPRESSION PILLS (3) UNFINISHED WORK
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the above plegde is inspired by my fellow hao-jie-mei men, hana kimi and boredem;)

Ps: I hope you all like this new template. I don't have my frontpage in this com, so i made do with this simple layout. And I DID that pic and background in boredem, so even if it offends your eyes bare with it k! This little change in the template is my very economical, be-early valentine's day present to you all. So I really hope you like it.

p.Ps: Hey all come visit me k!

and lastly p.p.Ps: I love hana kimi and wu zun... hee hee!

2006-12-14T23:57:00.000+08:00

Heyhey, thanx everyone for everything! Its a pity Jeanie u r not there but here are some photos for u to enjoy...

Thanx for the Blueberry cake!!=p

The cutting cake ceremony...

Some pics of us!!!

Last but not least...some candid pics....hahaha...

Yoohoo..Christmas is Coming!!!!=p
Well, i'll post these pics for now...Feeling sleepyZzzz..bb....

2006-12-13T18:06:00.000+08:00

Boo all potato chips and the yummypummysweety chocolates marshmellows and spictnicey sting ray and sausages and chickeywings and sotong..Grr! BOO them alllll!!!!!!

My throat is getting from bad to worse!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And i absolutely hate swollowing my saliva now. Grrs.
But I have no problem talking. Just that it gets a lil bad after that.
oh wells. Maybe i just cant live without talking. (hehe)

yakkyyakkyyakkkkyyyyyy!!!!=DDDD

Especially when Im practically facing the four walls all these days.

Im gonna rot sooonnnnnnnnn!!!!

Im gonna finish my bag of lozenges pretty soon..and it'll be the first and last time i ever buy that.>.<|

but hehehs.
cant wait to see u gusy tml la!:)))))

mucksmucks
sylvia:))

ps) sylvia feels a teeeny itsy accomplished today cause sylvia has finished reading othello but she doesn't really like the book cause she is supposed to be a happy girl and she feels sad after reading that cause by the end of the book only half of the characters are left. (the rest are all dead ) -.-||

2006-12-10T00:31:00.001+08:00

Yayyy!!
here are some photos we took la!!:))))
adding some colours here nei!:)))

Welcome to our humble abode!!!!!!

our unit number la =PpP

2006-12-10T00:17:00.000+08:00

relishing childhood days!!

cheryl, smint, chinghee, claire, me, chris and pris=)

Acting cute at the bus terminal!! Wahahahs! =DD
christine claire me and bev

Pris thinks she's gonna win XD

Prisssssyyy loves youuu! *retard*

claire wants my fishball!!!=XXX

2006-12-10T00:02:00.000+08:00

mahjonnngggggg!!!!!!!=DD aiya, dunno how to play la XD

kai lin, chin ghee and jingxian

yihui, khai qi, shujuan and irene playing streetfighter!:PP

2006-12-09T23:51:00.000+08:00

Irritating cheryl and her equally irritating evil smirk -.-||

waiting for bus..Whee!!!!:)))

acting cute with bugs at white sands!pris, me, bev, chirstine and claire:)))

crowding round the tv at 10pm.=))) no prizes for what show we're watching!:PPP

2006-12-08T13:09:00.000+08:00

heeeellllooo everyoneeee!!

Im back from our class chalet!! Yayaaa!!*^^* It was funnnnn!!!=DDDD But actually, the weather wasnt all that great for two days..so we mainly stayed indoors and played games and xbox!!! XD Hahahs..and sadly.."mission sylvia" didnt go on that smoothly la!!! They were all trying to teach me how to cycle...but hehehes...i still havent mastered it after one hour!! But they thinki should be able to get it the next time round! Haahhaha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!=DDD(cheryl told me she took 3 days to learn, so i think im not that bad after all la hor?) =PPP

And I just came back..so tired. and to think Im supposed to do my revision and completed my hw looong time ago..-_-""""
sighs. and fannyy!!!! ur dress is sooo nice!!!:)))))) we were wondering who's the prom king and queen!! Hhehes.
But anyways, heard that fullerton missed out one table...and everybody who's supposed to be at that table couldnt in laa!! All they get is like..a refund? -_-| I think i'll just show my blackest ever face if that ever happens. Imagine all the excitement and anticipation and preparartion...and in the end...they missed ur table out. -_-|||

Sighs...it's gonna be home along for me this whole weeekkk!!
Mum's only coming bacj next thursday..and my bro's going malaysia to see his darling.
Gaaahs!! must spend my time more productive-ly. =XXXX

Tired tired,
Sylvia:)))

2006-12-08T12:23:00.000+08:00

Yoohoo!!! Why our blog so dead... Is everyone bored to death at home???? In fact, i am too!!!=p Well I just had 2 performances and i tot i would post some pictures...=p One performance was at the Eye centre and the other is the grad nite one at Fullerton!! Nice hotel and ambience but many said the food is not as good....
Fullerton!!!
Our nice purple dresses!=p
At the Staircase...
Tjc Modern Dance club!!!=p

2006-11-16T13:23:00.000+08:00

Oh man..Im soo terribly bored at home!!!=SSSSs

You Are 40% Boyish and 60% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.
Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.
You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.
You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

Slow and Steady

Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy.

They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder.

It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment.

They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it.

How Do People See You?

Hmmm…why do I sound so much like our wy dearie?=)

2006-11-16T09:45:00.000+08:00

You Communicate With Your Eyes

When you say, "I'll believe it when I see it" - you really mean it.
For you, what you see is a lot more important than what you hear.
You don't take someone's words at face value. You judge people by their facial expressions, body language, and appearance.
You tend to be quiet, but when you talk, you tend to make eye contact and describe things in colorful detail.

How Do You Communicate?

You Are a Centaur

In general, you are a very cautious and reserved person.
However, you are also warm hearted, and you enjoy helping others in practical ways.
You are a great teacher, and you are really good at helping people get their lives in order.
You are very intuitive, and you go with your gut. You make good decisions easily.

What Mythological Creature Are You?

Syl^

2006-11-15T21:33:00.001+08:00

Hey hey!!!
Suddenly remembered this story rajesh told us in class..thought it was quite nice..so decided to tell u all lo!!!*^^*

Ceres was a beautiful goddess of harvest, cereal and fertility. She made the flowers bloom, the gardens grow, the fruits ripen, and of course, people on earth enjoyed a good life. No one went hungry and there was peace and happiness, just like what it should be. Life was just brilliant as she lived on happily with her beautiful daughter Poserpina.

Yet, unknowing to her, something very dreadful is running through Venus’s mind. In order to bring love to Pluto, she called out for cupid, her son. And ever since, Pluto became infatuated with the beautiful Porsepina and went on to abduct her, bringing her to the Hades.

At this point, Ceres was deeply devastated. She missed her daughter dearly and dreamt of the wonderful times they spent together. Soaked up in tears, Ceres could no longer watch over nature and its harvests. The fields went barren and there were no fruits or vegetables to speak of. Porsepina, on the other hand, was retaliating against Pluto. She refused all food and through the bittering cold, hard days, she thought of her mother, weeping. Still, the days flew by and the birds came and went, unable to curb her hunger, Porsepina ate four promegranate seeds, which Pluto had earlier offered her.

2006-11-15T21:33:00.000+08:00

Back in the skies, Ceres finally sought help from Zeus and she begged him to get Porsepina out from Hades. Yet sadly, Zeus said there was nothing he could do, since Porsepina had already eaten four promegranate seeds. Finally they came to a consensus. And for this, he said, Porsepina is to stay with Pluto in the Hades for four months of the year. As for the rest of the year, they may be reunited.

For this reason came the story of the four seasons. In springtime, ceres received her daughter and the earth rejoiced in unison. The flowers bloomed a resplendent colour and plants grew during summer, the crops flourished in abundance. For when autumn came, Ceres painted the earth in shades of orange and brown as a gift to Porsepina before she left for the underworld. And finally, when the cold gusts of winter arrived, Ceres was too heartbroken. All plants and crops on earth withered in sadness. Soon, what was left lying on earth were barren grounds in snow.

Waahs...the power of a mother's love nei!!!!^^
Hehehs, and Tadaa! That was how the story of the four seasons came about!!*^^*
Have a good night ba!!

ps) YAYYY!!!! thank you jeanie!! I've had a fantastic time at ur house nei!! but so sorry, must have been alot of trouble for u and ur parents nei!!! And tong tong is sooo handsome!!^^

2006-11-14T23:49:00.000+08:00

HAha.. why am i not surprised?!

Your Dominant Intelligence is Linguistic Intelligence

You are excellent with words and language. You explain yourself well.
An elegant speaker, you can converse well with anyone on the fly.
You are also good at remembering information and convicing someone of your point of view.
A master of creative phrasing and unique words, you enjoy expanding your vocabulary.

You would make a fantastic poet, journalist, writer, teacher, lawyer, politician, or translator.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

all in all it means that i'm noisy, talkative and mean coz i talk till i get my way... nay nay.. jeanie of coz

2006-11-14T23:44:00.000+08:00

You Are A Romantic Realist

You tend to be grounded when it comes to romance.
Sure, you can fall hard... but only for someone you've gotten to know.
And once you're in love, you can be a total romantic goofball...
But you'd never admit it to your friends!

Are You Romantic or Realistic?

done it tian'!((8.8)) jeanie.. hope ya all had a great time ytd and today;)

2006-11-11T22:55:00.000+08:00

hey ppl, why thee bloggie so quiet all of a sudden?? nvm, me got somethings to help spice up ur boring lives!=PpPP
hahas. know lar. u all miss me mah. hor? *^^*
hehes, i find this thingy quite true...creepy la!hahahs!!*^^*
u gutys can give it a try and if want, can paste ur results here yo!*^^*

http://www.superfate.com.tw/channel_fortune/

ps) monday 1030am marina? confirm? on ah!=)

sylvia:)

2006-11-09T21:50:00.000+08:00

Wahahahs!! show ur love and adopt a pet too oh!!!!!!=DDDDD

2006-11-09T13:00:00.000+08:00

Your True Sign Is Cancer

Cozy
Moody
Romantic
Traditional
Ultra-Sensitive
Unable to Let Go
The Most Loving Ever
Intuitive and Imaginative

Your Style is Classy

You've got class, and you know how to put together a guy catching outfit
You're more likely to shop at Bloomie's than bebe
For you style is looking like a million bucks...
And you're always do with your fantastic yet feminine wardrobe

You are 52% shy

Although you live a pretty normal life, you tend to be a fairly shy person.
Many situations make you feel uncomfortable, and you sometimes find your shyness hindering your life.

You are a realistic-romantic

It's easy for you to get swept away by romance...
But you've done a pretty good job keeping perspective.
You're still taken in by love poems and sunsets
You just don't fall for every dreamy pick up line!

^^Sylvia

2006-11-08T18:36:00.000+08:00

You Are A Romantic

You life your life like a fairy tale... or at least you try to.
Living for magical moments, you believe there's only one true love for you.
Love is the most important thing in your life, and you don't take it for granted.
Your perfect match loves to be in love as much as you do!

Are You Romantic or Realistic?

You Are 72% Shy

You are a very shy person, and it has started to impact your life in a negative way.
If you can avoid human contact, you usually do. And as a result, you miss out on a lot.

How Shy Are You?

Your Style is Classy

You've got class, and you know how to put together a guy catching outfit
You're more likely to shop at Bloomie's than bebe
For you style is looking like a million bucks...
And you're always do with your fantastic yet feminine wardrobe

What's Your Date Fashion Style?

Your True Sign Is Cancer

Cozy
Moody
Romantic
Traditional
Ultra-Sensitive
Unable to Let Go
The Most Loving Ever
Intuitive and Imaginative

What's Your True Sign?

eh pple go do quizzes and post them up!
-tian-

helo!

2006-11-04T09:36:00.000+08:00

hahas.. thanks for ur well wishes people! its emo time!
hmms... its such a nice feeling when you receive all those well wishes, isn't it?
hahas. yesterday class celebrated for jia and i, its kinda fun. Ate at swensens and crap a lot.. den went esplanade to chat.
Seriously, i dun like the feeling of growing up. growing up=more problems=need to think more=need to study more=need to study stuff in depth. reminds me of the 'bu xiang zhang da' song by SHE. rarrr. i wanta stay young!
ok... nevertheless, its really fantastic when well wishes keep coming in.. below is a list of pple who wished me h.b. so far i think (in the order of who wished me first):
1.Christi nana! (on the dot at 12am)(:
2.Najid jid jid jid!(wished my 3 times on different days. hahas.)
3.Jia (same bday!)
4.Peiling
5.Daniel
6.Jiahui
7.Charlene Tan
8.Junli
9.Supranee
10.Jeanie
11.Sylvia
12.Seying(actt din expect sy to rmb! cos like very long nv call her liao!)
13.Clara
14.Liangyu
15.Fanny
16.Sheryl
17.Pearly
18.Dennis (he promised to buy stuff back for me frm indo(: )
19.Lisi
20.erm sidney and afzal and desmond and pris and yewchin wished me yesterday before class celebration.

ur may not know all of them them, but they r nice pple! SO pple rmb their names, they are nice pple!
rarr... l8r still got pw. sians...den after dat shd be nothing to do! rarrr again.

oh suddenly thought of this phrase: it takes only one second to make a friend, but it may take one lifetime to find a true friend. Wells...

06s53!

2006-11-04T08:29:00.000+08:00

heeeeeeellllllllllooooo shitian!!

happy happy happy birthday gal!!! =D =) =P
ur officially 17 le nei! (that's old!!x)) hehehs, and anyway, hope tt u'll ahve a good rest today la!! (from pw!!)
wahhss!!!*^^* may all ur birthday wishes come true nei!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and hope to meet up soon!!!*^^*

HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!:)

and yes, on my goodness fanny, the whle thing sounded even more scary on ur post lei!!!!! *gulps!*
i think i would have died.....=X...juz imagine all the drilling and cleaning and pluckng and goodness knows what!!!!! =XXXX
eeeks!!!! I cant stand the sounds of all the tools that they use laaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but anyway, u still ahev 3 more????!!! gaaahs...i hoe that i'll neever ever have wisdom teeth growing out!!!!!!!!!!*^^*
but nvm ppl, jus in case *but CHOY!!!!* anyone of u needs to visit the dentist for some nerve wrecking experience...hehhes, can just picture kim jung hoon's face as ur dentise laa!!*^^*
i think it'll be alot better!! wahahahas!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!=DDD

okies then!!!
and anyway, shitian, we'll most prolly meet up next week again k?=)
hope to see all of uuuuuuuu soooon!!!*^^*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! and here's a virtual cake for u=)

2006-11-03T23:51:00.000+08:00

Ok.This is going to be quite a disguiting post and dun say i didn't warn u.Haha...

I plucked out my wisdom tooth todae. Its something i pray that i will never go through it again. I carn believe i actually agreed to pluck out my tooth because i always fear injection especially injection into my GUM!!! The whole "operation" lasted for only 10 mins!!!! Can u believe it?? 10 mins of plucking of tooth cost a hole in my parents' pocket!!! So u guys pray that ur wisdom tooth grow out well or else all of u will end up like me suffering the pain.

Since i've not been blogging for a long time, i shall blog about the whole process. I was lying down on the seat with my fingers and toes clenched tight and nobody seems to notice that i'm feeling terrified!!! The nurse was talking," this is to drill the tooth and this is use to pull it out..." OMG, i wanted to die aft hearing that and then the next second, the dentist say, "I'm going to inject ur gum now." How i wish i would faint thru the whole process but unfortunately, i was totally awake to go thru it..... I wonder the dentist injected how many times and he didn't seem to stop doing so...no wonder even my lips were numb aft the 'operation'...

After the injection, he started scraping my gums!!! I could really feel him scraping soooo hard that i do feel a little pain. And then next come the drilling. It was like a carpenter drilling a nail out of the wood. Aft drilling, he used all his might to pluck my wisdom tooth out and Poof! it came out!!!! To think that everything has ended, he said he needed to sticth. The threads were weaving thru my gums!!!! He cut off the remaining thread and the 'operation' was done... Come to think of it, i could feel the whole process but i couldn't feel the pain..Haha..Cool..

After operation, its the unberable pain. I could feel my tooth missing and its bleeding profusely...i couldn't take the pain killer until i got home..I suffered 1/2 HR OF PAIN AND WENT COMPLETELY CRAZY!!! Even Xiao Zhu and Xiao Jui couldn't divert my attention away frm the PAIN!!!!I looked at my wisdom tooth and its soo huge..It even has gum stick on to it...Haha...

Dun u all think i'm such a brave girl anf i pray that i dun have to pluck the other 3 wisdom teeth. It will realli drive me crazy....I feel like i'm writing a essay, but i noe u all won't mind cause u have come to the end of the post..Heehee...

Fanny=p( Oh, and i have 6 medications to take!!!)

boohooo

2006-11-01T13:36:00.000+08:00

yay.... i dun mind collecting the fotos this weekend... den i can show my frens the pretty frens i haf. hey.. ut better celebarte my birthday for me if we are meeting up alrites... i think i dun haf any activities on saturday la. damn sad. my frens think tat my secondary sch frens will be celebrating for me but in fact ur r not la! btw friday my class may be celebrating my birthday for me after the chinese As. nice nice. In case ur dunno what to get for me, below is an exhaustive list of my wishes (:
1. a pair of diamond ear rings
2. shoes/bag
3. freckles corrector pen
4. fragrance
5. mansion
6.erm... a treat to a nice hairdresser? (this sound the cheapest i guess. :D) I WANT A HAIRCUT PPLE!!

kk... but sadly i think that hardworking wy may be doing her pw. always la. tats so wy!
wells. jus take it tat im crapping den. rarr.

2006-11-01T09:23:00.000+08:00

hellloooooooooooooo my dear jie mei men!!!!!!!=)

yay!!! i finally finished my insights & reflection for pw yesterday wor!!!!!=)hahahs!!! now only left to memorise the script le nei..so sad...i think i'll be like the last one to finish op le! *humph!! >.<" (mine's on 9th Nov btw!!) =)

hehes...im like on the last disc of full house le!!!! and somehow...i kinda think tong tong looks a lil like rain la! Wahahahasss!!!=D actually there's nth much lols, its's a boring week for me nei! And i still have geog at 3pm today!!!!!!! Grrr!!! right smack in the middle...me still wanna go out de nei!!!!!!!!!>.<""

wahahas...okies lo...awy jeanie i drop by ur hse this weekend to get the photos k?=)
anyone wannnnaa join meeee????? =D
hahahs! it's okies la. pictures dun turn out that nice..it's ok!!!!=D
Just as long as it's us in the photos can le!! *^^*

Wahahahahsss!!
So long...cyaaaaaa!!!*^^*

mucks mucks
Sylvia (see jeanie i deliberately signed off lei!!=))

Ps/ Gaaahs!!!! me found a super cuteee photo of yul goon nei!!! *^^*
Tsssk tsssk....our blog needs more colours and excitement la! *winks winks!=)

2006-10-27T10:05:00.000+08:00

yayyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!
i had such a good time at jeanie's house with all u guys laaa~!!!!!!!!!!!!! mucks mucksssss!!!!!!=D
and really la, i agree with fanny, tong tong is actually quite cute...BUT! i still think he's overly enthusiastic and horny. -.-"
wahahahs!!! but again...good thing he doesnt really like me!!! *^^* wahahahahaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!x)
and yesssssss!!!!! aiyoo..ah tian, yul goon is like 26 already laaaaaa!!!!!!! x) hahahs!
gaaahss!! sooo cuteeee!!!*^^*

2006-10-26T14:16:00.000+08:00

Yoohoo!! realised that i've not blogged for a long long time....Heehee...Had fun yesterday at Jeanie house but thanks to Ng Wen Ying, so tired of waiting for her! Hmm...well, Tong Tong is quite a cute dog and i'm sure he is more attached to Wen Ying than me..Haha..

Well......I'm able to advanced to year 2 but there is a risk.If i dun do well during my term 1...thats it...I have to go poly.Argh, i'm going crazy soon...But i have to thank the school for allowing me to advanced to year two, which means i've got to work very very very hard this holidays.....Are u all going to help xiao mei here?? I know Da Jie will help me rite??? Heehee...Da Jie, i realli need your help cause i'm afraid to go Poly....*cries*.Hiaz, i have to give up on SYF as well....Whenever i think of that, i feel soooooo sad. I can't bear to let go of it....Going for dance SYF is something i always wanted.....

ok, decided to let go of SYF so i shouldn;t dwell over it anymore. I must be all ready to fight this battle and do well for My A;s. Jie Mei men, Jia You!!!!=p

Fanny=p

2006-10-26T00:00:00.000+08:00

“一年三百六十五天就这么咻的一下就没了。大部分人都是忙忙碌碌的过一整年，可我，却使用空白在充赛日子。知到我的朋友们都说我幸福，可我自己明白，其实我很可悲。”
这一年半载来，我是沉睡的。虽然仍活着但却明显少了点什么。处在城市的中心，却不身在尘世中。那便是我的生活。置身事外的我，很矛盾的看得即清楚却又很模糊。看见了以往高傲的眼眸看不到的低处，似乎也学会了解能用另一种更精松的方式活着。与此同时，双眼却是被蒙上了一层过往编织而成的纱，无法看清，更不能越过纱帐触摸发生的一切，让真实与虚幻之间的界线不断交结、模糊不清。

感慨：上学的，天天想放假。停学的，日日想回校。人似乎永远不会满足的。而这种不满足的日子，回到什么时候才结束呢？

Clarification

2006-10-24T21:38:00.000+08:00

Ahem, first of all, i would like to wish Jeanie a very very happy birthdae! This year may be a tough one for you but after all the things that have happened, i believe you have grown more mature, and this is a good thing!

Who say i din enjoy myself that day? Who? Who? I did ok. Its just that towards the end i felt a bit bored by the topic...And, i need to clarify... its not dat i like girls lar...dun make it sounds as if im a .. you-know-what. Actually i dun like gals, not all though, juz some. Coz i find it very difficult to communicate with gals. I hope i can be a guy. Thats all lar. and the people i like are pple whom i admire, those who have talents, charisma...thats all lar. Dun think otherwise pls. And dun announce it so loudly in the public next time, like what u all did at Mcs dat day...sigh...so embarrassing...

Shall end here. See u guys at jeanie's hse tml!

happy(:

2006-10-23T10:29:00.001+08:00

yay. lets go out more often pple!!
ok tho wy may not have really enjoyed herself, i did!!! wy ah, go find urself a guy...gogogo.. its wrong to like girls.X)
n wy ah. its impossible for nalgene bottle n i to be tgt. hes just an infatuation i guess. n i seriously seriously cant imagine us tgt. bleahs.
oh a lighter note, we r visting jeanie at her hse on this coming wed at ard 3. wy n fanny, ur free?
ending this post, i wanna say... i dislike pw! (i noe wy likes it xp)

-tian-

2006-10-13T14:57:00.001+08:00

11th October 2006

hellooooo!!!
aiyohhhh!!! why you all all never blog de??? x) like that i feel like ive got two extra big mouths instead of one looo!!!!!x)
hahas
YES! SYLVIA DESPITE BEING THE “POOR THINGY” TO END HER PROMOS SOOO LATE...HAS FINALLY MANAGED TO DO AWAY WITH ALL THAT AGONY!! wahahahaha!!!!!!!=D
so happy laaa!!! finally finished my lit paper today!!*^^*
and seriously..when i was writing my third essay...i felt like stopping le lorx!>_<" tired lei! GGGaags!>_<""

hehes..and i must tell u of my adventure today!!!=) **hussshhh!~* =)

so after lit today esther and i went bugis...and as usual..the shops were all still closed laaa! suddenly bev msged esther, saying that my phone is with some guy wearing black shirt at the cinema..O_O""""""..and sooooooo......we were walking like soooo fast..through the streaming crowds, through the smelly musty air...and through the cars and finally.....Through it alll!!!!!!!!
hahahs. Sylvia managed to recover her phone! =D

Taaaa-daaaaaa!!!!!

and seriously i really didnt realize that i misplaced it laaa!! so moral of the story????=) there will always be gooooooddyyyy people to save the day! *yay!* *winks winks!!!* =D Yayayyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!! Really laaar!! first time i hear people will return phone de lorr!!!!=)
and esther was insisting that it's good karma..--on her part!* x) cuz she say she saw this super duper nice laptop the other day lying somewhere...and she was such a goooood gal...she left it there=) thinking that its poor owner muz have forgotten all about it!!! hehehs!!! (she insisted that daryl saw one another day and almost took it home!-_-)

2006-10-13T14:57:00.000+08:00

11 October 2006

*^^* YAYYYYYY! so im extra extra happy today...! Plus! I finally cut my hair short leeeeeeeeee!
*sorry shitian, i really cant stand the heat anymore laaarr..so went to cut first! but i'll still accompany u de!*^^*

Yaayyayaaaaayyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
im soo looking forward to school tml!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!=D
lalalalala!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
school is fun...pw rocks....OP ah? HAHAHAhaahahaaaaaa*fading...........

die lor

and yes. The bottom line is?
I MISSS ALL OF YOU LAAAAA!!*^^*
A MILLION AND ONE KISSES!!!!!!

and of cuz, let me reinterate....do good and goodness shall be showered unto thyself (and thy friends)=)
wahahahs!!!!!

*a-hem*
It has certainly been a most laborious week, and till I meet mine most delicate friends to express thine wondrous love,
allow me to bid thee all a fair adieu.
Thy is surely taking delight in looking forward to our next enchantment!

wahahahssshhaaahs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
okies!
Cya all soooooooon!!!*^^*

2006-09-25T16:59:00.000+08:00

wahhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!=(

i feel as if a part of me has been ripped off or sth..and it's permanent!!!!!!!!!='(
Just like two days ago..i dropped my john hancock watch in the bathroom laa!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and the person says it's wu yao ke jiu le!!!!!!! mei xi wang!! cuz it has suffered serious internal injuries...and "its skeleton is broken".
waa!!!!!!!!!! so howwwwwwwwwwww??!!!!!
i wannnnnnnnnnnnnnnt myyyyyyyyyyy watchhhhhhhhhhh backkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
waahhhhhhsssssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!>_<"

sylvia wannnts her watch backkkkkkkkk!!!!!

gosh.
so how how how.
we've been together for around 6 years..that's sooo so long.
it's hard to let him go laaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!=( (yes my watchie is a guy=))
he will not be there to witness all the eevnts im going through ever again laaa!!!

catch my bus
time for break
time for lunchie
time remaining for papers
Gaaaaahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!

It has big bigg BIGGGG sentimental value other than all that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so now,
i'll only have my black sheep watch with me.
i'll lock my watchie in a very special pooh bear tin from now.='(

sad and grieving for the demise of her watch,
sylvia

2006-09-11T16:53:00.000+08:00

and oh ya! did i ever say that my lovely samsoon simply rocks?!! haahs!=)

esther sent me a pic of them actually..but the idiotic M1 operator label covered their faces can???=X hehehs...but no fret! lovely bevvie is there to save the dayyy!!!!! she sent me another oneee!! Unblocked when i set as wallpaper!!*^^* what a good day to start the first day of term!!!!!!!!!!=) Yaysssssssss!!

mcuks mucks!!!

and of course...all three of us can see our dear darling anytime we wish to now!=)hehes!*^^*

2006-09-11T16:34:00.000+08:00

helllooooo!
yay! congrats fanny!!!!!!
u passed ur piano exam!!! so that's like grade 7? is it? hehes.
wah! can get ur diploma soon le!
envious!=)

anyway.
ya.im like wasting my time away..juz completed some tropical cyclone project! Grr.
Fanny!!!!!!! i dun understd why she's so sadistic larrr..like to see her poor students researching their hearts out!!!=X

yes.
all of us can do it nei!
jiayou jiayou!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
6 more weeks and everything will be over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-09-09T21:33:00.000+08:00

Hey Everyone...Fanny is here to share her joy!!!Heehee...I Passed my Piano exam!!And i did not passed it on the dot or by a few marks, though another 3 marks will give me a Merit, still i'm Happy!!!!=p

Was just thinking, since i passed my piano exam, i can win the promos Battle too!!! i Can do it, i'm sure we can all do it!!!! We all jia you to achieve our goals k??? Heehee....I'm soooooo Happy!!!!!=p

2006-08-26T20:04:00.000+08:00

'What will your obituary say?' at QuizGalaxy.com

what the...-_-"""
I dunnnnn wannnaaaa die a hilarioussssssssss deathhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wahahahhssssssss! *goes hystericallllll
and missed by lollypop kids.
how juvenile.
bleahs!!
i was hoping for a more romantic one laaa.hehehs. like e one christine got! wahahahs!*^^*

2006-08-24T21:00:00.000+08:00

Lalalalaa.....
i just got back from school..am super tired now...and it's all thanks to sucky pw~!!!!-_-""
bleahs. yea fanny.....we stay back one day next wk k?=)
integration.
my nightmare....-_-"

anyway..yesterday i think henry had this bad dream or sth can...he screamed and went like "Ahhh!" at like 3am?!!!-_-"
and i had a hard time falling back to sleep!!! *yawns!
and it's not the first time anymore!hahahs!! pooor boy!!hahas!

had a long lunch break today..and guess what..jing xian treadted us to thai express!!!=) hahas. he was supposed to subsidise each of us $2..but bev bargained it to $5..and in the end..he decided to treat! aiyahs. maybe people whose hearts are aching just like to splurge and spend like nobody's business.

then again...do you all watch my lovely samsoon????aiyah!!!!!! must watch k!*^^* it's damn funny!!hahas..bro even wanted to buy the dvd..(acting rich only!)

anyway, kryshelle was like commenting that men nowadays are simply oblivious to their supposed gentlemently ways. obviously she's pisssed cuz stupid men and guys are always fighting seats for her in the train and bus! ya..tt can be seen like everywhere laa!-_-" tsk tsk! just tt day..i was on board of 229 and decided to sit beside this temasek sec boy..OMGOODNESS!!!!!!! i seriously felt like ticking him off can?!!!! he practically took up like more than 2/3 of the seat can??!! cuz he was seated like slanted..listenting to his stupid bla bla music...and i had practically nowhwer to put my legs...seriously! Raawrrrrr!!!

ya. okies. anyways.
luckily fanny's bloggng too.
i almost thought i ve made good friends with the online air molecules or sth..-_-""

wahahahs!!*^^*
cya all soon!=)

2006-08-22T22:30:00.000+08:00

Yoohoo!!! Seems like Sylvia is the only one blogging these few times...So i decided to blog too!! Hahaha...

Has been mugging these few days. I'm actually saying that i've been mugging! Wow!!!Spent my whole saturday studying, and i'm juz so lagging behind from others. Juz when i tot i can have a break from PW, its coming again. Editing the WR, we are actually going to start on the 3rd draft, coming out with scripts for oral presentation and we have to rehearse it soon!!!! Argh, on top of PW, i have sooo many math and Physics tutorials to complete!!! Sylvia, can we meet up one day to do math??? I really dun understand integration!!!

Hiaz... there's still teacher's day performance next thursday..... Well, i guess all i can say is tat soon everything will be over including promos! I'm so going to do much better for tat man..I want to get promoted!!!!!

mUgGeR??!!! i dun think so...Hahaha

2006-08-22T17:30:00.000+08:00

Awwww!!!
Sweedy was just sooo sweet laaa!!*^^* so happy to have her as a senior..(though i really didnt see her ard at all in PL!)
She called all of us out to eat..hehehs...=) and we ate nice fish noodles at the hawker!! yum yummmmyyy...!!=) Fanny!!! you can go try it next time..it's the stall just opp the super nice bedok south prawn mee!*^^*
wahahahs...at this rate...im gonna turn into a big fat pig sooon laa!!!!
yea..and awy..wahahahs! found that we have soooo much in common can?!
Like me..she's from...
1. 4A2
2.slacky leo
3. ran for exco but..sighs....^^
4.TTT
5. FTS

heheh...anyways, she's just sooo nice and sweet!!=)

And ya, just when I finally gathered enough motivation to learn my integration this afternoon..stupid winne has to be so tempting..eh...ok, that sounds wrong...and distracting....-_-""""""""""" Grrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i'll nevr finish mugging my math (wowa! alliteration!!!*^^*) laaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yes. anyways.
claire's cousin passed away. she was like really really really sad....was almost crying the whole day. red puffy eyesa nd all.
and esther jus told me that she's from a single parent family...like she cant even remember her father.
sighs.
it just reminds us how vulnerable and unexpected life can be!

bleah! It was just soooo damn embarrassing during math lecture today...we started on a new topic and there's this new lecturer..and halfway through...my phone just rannng sooooo loudly can???!!!!!!!!!!!! and i think the lectureer was like trying to kill me with his stare or something...-_-"
and obviously....the whole LT just turned to me...which soo unfortunately ....i was right smack in the middle...-_-" Heees. only consolation?=) Luckily I had my niceeee ringtone on!!!*^^*

Mum left for HK this morning. it's gonna be 2 weeks of home along for me.. Bahs!
need to wash clothes iron clothes find food buy food bla bla bla...
wish me luck=)

2006-08-19T14:53:00.000+08:00

and ya btw...jeanie..that clip was simply hilarious!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wahhahas! dun be sooo pessimistic laaaa.........i still think answering calls is better than having maths remedial. (yes. Sylvia's in a maths remedial class.) at least ur talkingggggggggggg!!!!!
Sobs! I cant even talk during classsssssss!!!!!!!!!!!!
waaahssss!

and yes! there's something impt i ahve to announce to u guys...34/06 has aimed to be the best value added cg for promos (considering that 3406 is like ranked 30 out of 34 for L1R5 ranking!) !!!!!!!!!!
no more zero(th) percentile for us in maths anymorrrreeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-08-19T14:35:00.000+08:00

my back is aching. my shoulder's kinda killing me now. Raarww! Falg day at tampines sucks laaa!!!!!!!
The people there are soooo damn unfriendly...and women there...are especially Hummph...hoe do you say it....oblivious to everything! Grrr. And there's like a hundred and one people doing flag day for red cross at tampines??!!! Grr..but never mind, sylvia dearie was still very very polite to eah and everyone she met!*^^*

i think my classmates are sick.
Noo..myabe it's just alex who's totally mad laaa...saw his exam timetable...it WAS SOOOO FREAKY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i end up getting so stressed and all.
and i dun ahve a single clue on maclaurin's series and integration. BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!>.<""
AIIIIYoooh!!!!!!!!!!!!!
promos are like in 1 months time?????
how how how???!!!!>.<""
Fannnnyyyyyyyyyyyy save meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*cries!!>.<"

anyway. my week has been really quite bad.
we quarrelled and all. bahs!
like it's not entirely our fault.......i dun really think we went super overboard.
you've just blown up a small matter. Humph!
and all of us are just kinda hurt laaaaa.....even though we've all apologized. we can see that this really matters alot to you....but it's like....???!!!!...fine. ok. perhaps im just not being uderstanding enough. Im turning evil. -_-"
we thought that you couldve chosen a more....hm.....easier way out instead? that's more mature i think.
i must remember where to draw my line of fun with you now.

Ghs! okies. just ignore the last part. just that it has beeen kinda a long time since i have had "friction" with anyone..=(

New resolution: learn my integration and maclaurin's series this weekend=)

MY CUBICLE

2006-08-18T22:40:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hjhi_FHxY8k

just wanted to share this song with all of you. Take some time to listen through, and try not to laugh really... that song writes the truest record of my new working life. And yes for those who don't know, spendthrift queen is now earning her own keep. Office Work SUCKS!

2006-08-09T17:07:00.000+08:00

My True Birth Month is...

Loyal
Social
Logical
Easily jealous
Loves children
Rather reserved
Highly attentive
Likes to criticize
Needs close friends
Ambitious and serious
Smart, neat and organized
Hardworking and productive
Loves to teach and be taught
Quiet unless excited or tensed
Sensitive and has deep thoughts
Knows how to make others happy
Searches for the greatest romance
Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds
Romantic but has difficulties expressing love
Always looking at people's flaws and weaknessess

Yaa..like duh! Jan's my true birth month mah...but awys..im having a super boring and unstimulated national day. oh wells.
kies. there's like piles of work to be done and me heer is still happily slacking ard. -.-"" BAAAAAAH!! esther went to watch the fireworks yest!!!!!! Humph!

Me want fireworks tooooooooo! *rants!* >.<"

http://www.blogthings.com/whatsyourtruebirthmonthquiz/

2006-08-07T16:47:00.001+08:00

Yas...and we had like a mooooost wonderful lit make up with ms nansi today!!!!*^^* So fun!!!!!=PppP
So, we were discussing how we should all get settled with people like Darcy who's handsome, rich, hot and interesting and

Kryshelle just said.."having a handsome, rich and dying old man is better...can take all his money and find the young one"

*Tink Tink!!! Does it ring a bell Jeanie dear? hahahs*^^**

So, ms nansi just went," what for handsome when he's dying?"

Ya, true hor. (Anyway, Ms nansi has admitted that she's a "self confessed shallow person" who cant stand things "ugly" Tsk tsk!!!=PpP)

As usual, Keyshelle just said how she should write a book about (handsome), rich and dying men instead of young rich and interesting darcy(s).

"So..what should the title be ah??????"

"Graves and Gold-diggers lor!"

How smart of Ms Nansi..Wahahahs!! Got alliteration somemore can?? Seriosuly..the class could ve died laughing larr!!!!=D Hahahs! Anyway, it's gonna be National day celebration tml!!!!!!! Our class has decided to wear our sec sch pe shirts or any shirt larr...but of cuz pris and I are not gonna go sch tml looking like big ripe bananas. =)

oh yea!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im soooo happy MLB won the superband thingy larr!!!!!!!!!!=)))
mum says that the milo company shld sponser them...-_-""

Oh yes...Ssssheesshhh!!
me have one secert to say here....
mama told me a couple of days ago that...*gasp!* she talks to herself while along at home watching tv...hahahs!!!!*^^*she claimed that it's to keep ehr brains working and prevent dementia...-_-"
Hahahs..oh ya btw.
u guys are not supposed to say it out ya?=)
*whispers: its supposed to be a secret!!!^^*

2006-08-07T16:47:00.000+08:00

Heeeyyy!! You guys know what? I have just made like a super amazing discovery..ehz...that is..i cant exactly publish my post if they're too long.-_-" not that i have old long grandmother entries..but anyways, me here shall break em all up starting from now!

I think im jinxed these days. It ahs been kinda long since i've been inflicted any physical pain ya know. And just this week alone..I've

1) banged my forehead on the toilet basin..Ooouch larrrr!!!!>_<"
2) scratched my right leg on the table's corner
3) scratched my right thigh with my P&P binding which getting myself seated in the LT..-_-"
4) scratched my left hand against God knows what
5) had a small part of my left sole's skin scraped off..or sth. That's the most ridiculous thingy can?! Was getting rather excited over mama's 30 year old photos yest, so i kinda hopped on the parquet flooring...who knows a small plank of the stupid parquet wood wasnt fit in nicely...and it literally cut through my think fleshy sole can?!!! OOOOOOOOUCHHHHHHH LAARRR!!!! >_<"

Grrr. I seriously think ive been jinxed. -_-"

2006-07-30T08:16:00.000+08:00

yada yada! okies, i sound lie a duck. but anyway fanny...if im not wrong..ur talking about that stupid I.C.W.L riteee?? the one who claimed to lost the pw file under lt1??? -_-""""" Grr...i guess the thing now you can do is just ren2.-_-"" sounds stupid laaa..but that's how people are sometimes! plain weird and irritable!!!!!!!!>_<"" im having like the worst ever time for pw now.....dun even know if my eom is ok...and my group leader is just presing me for info for the written report...grrr!! im like sooo tired of everyting! cant even seek solace during weekends..-_-""" i think all of you know what i mean la hor?=) hehehes! how nice if all of us were tgt!!!=) fanny, dun worry laaaaaa......i think i'lll manifest ur ears with my incessant ramblings and complaints too!!=) seriously.....school and life has practicallly.....not much meaning for me. Nothing much I can look forward to anyway! (okies, the first thing on my lst to look forward to is actually the national day hols!! =) sad eh?)

and jeaniee!!!! jiayou jiayou looo!!!!! steady pom pipi!! (hehes...was watching Sg idol yest!) ur life has like soo many changes gg on now!!=) i bet they'll all be for the better? hows ur puppy????=) is he/she cuteee??? got name alr?? hahahas!!!*^^* must remember kays...no matter what happens, we'll all be here for one another!!!=)

okies...tt's all then..
my brain isnt exactly working well 8 am on a sunday morn~!

ps/ omg!!!!!!!!!!!!! i can actually publish this post!!wahahha!!!!!=)

2006-07-29T22:42:00.001+08:00

I love the phrase" I dun noe and i dun care!" There's so many things out there for me to do and i feel so tired to complete them. Well i noe everyone is tired and stressed but i juz wanna to give up. PW is driving me crazy. As u all read from Jeanie's blog, u noe how frustrated i am. Sylvia, juz be prepared whenever u see me in school becoz i noe i will start complaining. I can feel my blood vessels bursting everytime i get pissed! Jeanie, sorry for disturbing u tat nite but i felt much better aft talking to u!=p

Oh and Estee mentioned sth tat maybe u guys can think abt it. Girls can't stop thinking for one sec however the guys can! Isn't it amazing yet scary to noe tat u r actually thinking every min, every sec?? How i wish i can be a cloud in the sky...Drifting past buildings is much enjoyable than life down at earth!No worries at all. I'm sooo tired..............I want to escape..........

2006-07-29T00:57:00.000+08:00

Been a long long time since I have contacted or comunicated in any pro-active, two-sided means with all of you. Well, just got off the phone with poor fanny dear, who is completely tormented by that idiot in her __... Seriously, i'll hex him and that would be so his fault. But in any case, though this is not exactly a two-sided comunication method, but i guess it'll have to do, or my friends will soon enough think i have dropped off the surface of earth into outer space or evaporated and ascended to heaven above.

To be truthful, heaven might not be too far from me, in many's eyes and opinion. And in reality, maybe and maybe not. For if i die anytime soon<-which do not seem like a bad thing at this moment, i might at least be able to catch a glimpse of it before i descend into the raging flames of hell. Why then in commom opinion would my life be like heaven?
1. I don't go to school, thus save the PW woes, monday blues and term paper horrors
2. I went on a trip to Re Dang, this really beautiful island with blue skies and an endless sandy beach and sea.
3. I will soon be preparing for another trip to HongKong.
4. I have a new laptop at my latest whim and cry.
5. I have a new golden retriever puppy, whom was bought to add value to my mere existence and life. (literally)
6. I spend money the way, drinking water drips off an open tap with little finacial concerns.
7. I will be moving into a new home(Again in the area of Serangoon), with my own room and toilet attached.

Life can really be simple or even a dream to others. For as Sylvie has said formerly that there are those who live in fear of dying the next moments, those who have lost their loved ones in disasters that leave them with absolutely nothing in one night, those who live to live without the chance of thought. I am not unaware of these suffering, nor am I ignorant of my own blesssings. However, lately I've been thinking about this phrase I saw on msn one day: death, what a good thing, as long as it happens to you and not your loved ones. I can only suppose I agree with it, for that is perphaps the only explaination to my actions. Scar count: 8 on my left wrist, 4 on my right. Pills taken within 1 mins: 6 painkillers. I am consciously aware of my actions and reasons behind every act. I am however just weary of explaining them, when no one wishes to listen and yet is constanly pretending to listen. I am exhausted of explaining why I am selfish enough not to consider the consequences and feelings of those around me. And above all, unwillingly to repeat that I am not blind to the blessing I own.

Life has become increasingly painful and tiresome. So such that I have finally realised that helpness's true meaning is when you realise that you so desperately hope to cease breathing and yet can't help but take in your next breath.
Note: Do you know that it is impossible to die because you held your breath. because you pass out before you have a chance to die. When you pass out, you lose consiousness, which means you lose control over your body's functions. Your involuntary functions that you don't have to think about to control (breathing, heart beating, etc) still go, but you can't force yourself to hold your breath or even move while you're passed out. Sad isn't it?

Another thing that keeps coming back to me, other than the nightmares and horrors that never left is this scene in MY DATE WITH A VAMPIRE II. Wy might recall, but i'm not sure. It is when the real Kuang Tian You, comes back as a ghost to write his last diary entry about his afterlife. It says, after this man died before it was told where he was to go (hell/heaven), he met the guardian of afterlife, who congraulated him. The guardian said something like: Congrats, after your death there are more who weep for you, then those who take joy in your death. Thus, you are granted entry to the gates of heaven. The man got very depressed and said that he would rather go to hell and let it be that no one will cry over his death. However the guardian said that it cannot be changed for tears once cried cannot be undone. Thus the guardian took this very unhappy man into the gates of heaven.

Frankly I have no idea why I choose to blog that in, but well if you my pal is still reading then we'll have to agree to sylvie that reading blogs is a complete waste of time. I don't know what else to say, so farewell my pals. I am struggling with the unknown of my bleak future.

hohoho!

2006-07-28T12:39:00.000+08:00

Hey all.
Ok, this is gonna be a super crappy post here.it is just NOT my day today.capitalised! Anyway, am in the hub with Cheryl and Priscilla now, dear Cheryl is doing her EOM (and taking her own sweet time) Grr!! and Esther just went to Tampines for her 1.5 Hr haircut!! Hahahs, even the slow aunty at my house doesn’t take that long!!!

Anyway, ya, I was saying about my horrible day. As usual, the 229 busstop was like so damned packed this morning and I kindly let the cuteee temasek pri kids board on first and again, istory repeated itself and, i was left strandede there -again! -_-“” Not again! and then, I felt something funny while waiting for the next bus. (horrors of all horrors…my monthly best friends came!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!>_<"") OMG!! And to think I was supposed to have PE, 2.4 run! *faints*, and soo I rushed all the way to the washroom which is at lallala faraway land..and ended up almost late for assembly!! gosh!!! Grr! I swear that my tummy hurt like crazy laaaaa….=XxX and now the whole class knows my best friends are in for a visit cause dear Sylvia is asking round the whole class for pads.-_-“””

Ya. Okies.
This is a sooooo not intellectual and goody post now.
Seriously, no wonder mrs noordin says that she’ll never read blogs.
Waste of time.
Especially when you read about stupid boring stuff like how I couldn’t get onto the bus for like the Nth time!=PppP
Ya! So get onto ur work and stop slacking infront of the computer!!!!!!!!!!!
Includes u too jeanie!! Muahahaha!!!=)

Ps/ anyway, ms nansi went all mad about going French today…for a moment I thought that pride and prejudice was written by a French woman.-_-“” hahahs!

Sylvia=)

pps) and oh ya...i forgot to ramble and curse about tt stuypid jing xian...he was soooo distracting guring GP lesson yest...tt all of us couldnt complete our work laaa!! I swear I will not allow him to sit like within 2m of my arm's radius!! and he was commenting about how cool my shuffle's ear piece was (which is of coz!!!*^^*)..and how interesting that it has got a silicon cover as well.( which he fondly named it a condom)so...for like the whole while...we were discussing that ppl shld produce glow-in-the-dark condoms (my silicon cover is!) so as to "navigate their way around smoothly!". Obviously, the quoted lines are NOT from me...im still innocent!*^^*

2006-07-27T16:10:00.000+08:00

23 july 06

I can't believe how lucky I was until yesterday. Actually, I always say all those cliched crappy stuff in my weekly gp article reviews...after cutting out some reports on the bombings and terrorism and disasters and bla bla bla. But it was until yesterday that I truly really sincerely felt how lucky all of us actually are.

Like the very least, we don't live in broken shattered homes. We don't grow up being the victims of family abuse. We don't have a whole pack of indifferent siblings from all the different marriages of your parents (the siblings are starngers really) we don't worry about how the monthly family expenses are going to be cleared and we don't have to suffer the inconveniences of getting a whole family living in a 2 room flat. And best of all...at least we have healthy parents and all...at the very least, we don't have the fear of your mum leaving before you actually got a chance to really grow up and rescue her from the shitty crappy miserable life. I guss his lifestory can be shot in a soap opera.

please do not get mistaken..hehes..sylvia here didnt go for her cip home visits or whatsoever. Just that this person's expereince is truly unbelievable...he's actually the very first person i know personally who suffers to that state. Hard to imagine what i'll do if I were him actually. Jump down the building? ahahs...it's definitely a choice. I mean, it sometimes amazes me how much a young spirit of seventeen years can actually withstand. Perhaps his life experiences are more than enough to cover up all of ours all addded together. Im serious!

Ya. anyway..enough all of these unhappy stuff.
how's life for everyone??? Wy? you sound really profound and abstract in? your last entry!
hm...kinda philisophical:) but oh wells...I guess everyone ahs their unique side:)
Soemtimes, I've been thinking about how much I've changed? trhough the years actually..and the possibility that perhaps, I've moulded myself into this person whom the world outside can best accept and all...and in the process , you lose yourself without even your own knowlegde. In a way, it's as if you've become so used to putting up this front that you have lost the ability to like...truly...be the way you were originally? that thought is really kinda scary.

Just a lil quote I heard. It takes courage to be yourself in a world where everyone wants you to be somebody elseor sth like that la!=)

Now talk abut self actualizationI think its just a vicious cycle. The more you try to realize yourselfthe more questionable you get and it just follows that way..on and on and on. So.quit thinking about such chim stuff la!=) attaining self actualization is even harder than getting the nobels prize for physics or sth. *^^* hahas!! Better to live the happy simple way=)

mess

2006-07-20T18:44:00.000+08:00

what a mess im in. i hate my life. many things happened in just 7 months, awfully much. i hate the situation im it. having practically no confidant to talk to, having practically no time to catch up with work (actually i do, but just cant bring myself to do anything). i want a life of my own, the kind that i always yearn for. it seems that i've lost total interest in studying. i just cant produce the results that i want. People may say how smart or wadever i am, but seriously im just hardworking(moreover thats in the past). so arent i just an empty shell? what accomplishments do i have? nothing. Believe in yourself and thats the biggest accomplishment in life, one may say; i want to but i simply cant. i have lost however diminutive amount of confidence i had. so what if i got into a sch that i like? Life has nv been great for me. whatever la.. i just have to force myself to study. embracing myself will be the best antidote now...

on a lighter note.. i read this somewhere: love is never 50-50. it always take someone to say "i love you" before u fall in love w him/her. quite true isnt it? seem so cruel right?
something random...it happens most of the time: when u like a person, he or she sadly has no feelings for you, however when a person likes u, u simply have no feelings for him and u just simply hate him so much for being so pervertic and irritating! hahas. so dumb right? xp
-monoko-

self contradicting

2006-07-19T19:58:00.000+08:00

I don't like to talk....But when i don't talk, it makes the situation worse because people start asking why am i so quiet....and then i have to explain....but normally im unable to explain because it is very complicated...

I don't like to talk because i feel that whenever i need to talk, i will not be telling the truth. Because of my strong desire to remain unknown to the outside world, i will have to tell lies so as to protect myself...i hate telling lies but i think there is a need ... coz i really hate being the "center of attention"..basically i juz dun really like anyone paying more then needed attention on me.

That's why i don't like to be liked by anyone.... or disliked by anyone...
However, if i really have to choose, i would prefer people to hate me for who im then like me for who im not. Maybe you may say that its because i feel inferior, that i do not have enough self-confidence, that's why i don't want anyone to notice me. ok that may be one of the reason. but i juz hate being known...

Anw, although i dun like people to know me well, i dislike it when people thinks that they are right abt their judgement abt me...i think i expect people to discover me through my actions, and through very in-depth analysis....not simply through my accomplishments or failures. erm and i dun expect them to know me through having converstaion with me....

I talk for the sake of having to talk,for the society expects me to talk more so that they can know more abt me and try all means to exploit me, either in the good way or the evil way.

I hate to reply msgs coz it requires expressing my thoughts....anw when i express views, i expect pple to accept my views coz i will only contribute that view if i really think its useful...haha am i a horrible personk?

I wld prefer my emotional curve on the graph to be a straight line at the end of the day then to have one that is filled with ups and down...even if you offer me a curve that is quadratic andk slopes upwards towardk infinity, and has a minimum point at a positive y values, i wounld wan it...I want a straight line graph!!

i feel that this world doesn't require language, coz eventually everyone will turn into ash. so what if you have moved yr mouth before you turn into ash? so wad if you have made a significant impact on the lifes of others? Isn't the whole earth juz about reproducing and ensuring that our human race don;t become extinct? The basic function of language is juz to facilitate reproduction....so wad if im prepare not to fulfil my duty as a human being? Do i still need to learn how to use language??

.....Nvm juz ignore me....aren;t i using language now?? are i allowing others to read this post and then know more about me?? I think i have gone mad.! I have simply forgotten abt my purpose in life...Am i even making sense here?? Have u all ever tried isolating ur sub conscious mind frm the conscious part?? If you were to try it, u will feel sth very special....that is you are actually a stranger to yrself...anw, currently i feel as if im someone trapped inside a shell,and that "shell" is doing things that i do not know and has no control over....

2006-07-06T22:35:00.000+08:00

Argh!!!!Exams and exam results are horrifying to me! I hate the feeling of having some hope in my papers knowing clearly there's no hope at all. Ok, i dunno wat i'm talking abt. Life's boring and i have no goal in life! Gosh, tat's bad! How's everyone doing ever since school started? I think i would have juz died in tj if not for Sylvia.Sylvia:Thanx for being available at all times and i felt much better after talking to you.=p

Managed to loose some weight the last few days and then when i started eating lunch, the weight is back. This sucks. I only managed to feel light for a few days!!!Tat's soooo unfair!!!!Boo...Better start studying now or i'll not get promoted!! Heehee, shall stop here and i believe France will win the World Cup!=p

Lovely school Holidae

2006-06-16T19:05:00.000+08:00

Yoz people! Hows your holidae? hmm i had a great time you know? Haha i went to japan frm 7 june to 14june for cultural exchange. Heehee it was an eye opener for me. Coz i realise guys over there are really very shuai and talented. Sooooo much better than singaporeans...oh if i continue to stay in singapore, i guess i will remain single forever, coz i will always compare the guys here with those in japan. and you noe wad? I took photo with quite a few guys whom i find them talented and suave..yayness! haha..i noe i a little crazy...anyway they are coming to singapore next year for cultural exchange!! I can't wait to see them again!

ok lar, dun worry, i hasn't forgotten my dear friends here!! My hao jie mei!! thanks for being my friends!! coz i realise not many people will be willing to be my friend so those who have actually became my good friends are really precious to me! heehee.
:D miss you all loads! shall arrange to meet you guys after CT.

Oh and im planning to help jeanie prepare for 'o's after my promo exams... Since promo finishes in september, i shall devote all my time from sept to nov to helping jeanie!!yay!! jie mei men, who is joining me?? I shall make sure jeanie gets straight As. heehee.

this sunday i going to help tsb and plmgs in the guzheng concert! im feeling excited! haha. actually i should be studying...but i carn be bothered....music is more impt to me now...studies come after it...i dunnoe how to put it...but studies have suddenly become a very insignificant part of my life...i dunnoe why is it so...can any body tell me if this is a good or bad sign??hmm....nvm...

okay i shall end here...people please blog!!im craving to noe how everyone is doing. :D

wy

2006-05-30T22:40:00.000+08:00

Wow...Holidays r Here!!!!!!!!It's a pity we still have to study for Jct.*sobs*

Jeanie, u have to study during the hols too...In 5 months time, u have to take ur 'o' papers!!!Stressful huh??But i believe u can do it, u have my support all the way!=p Oh and Wen Ying, dun get so stressed with ur CCA k?? Sound as if your CCA is more stressful than ur workload!Hahaha...

Just watched Da Vinci Code today. Not a bad show!Go watch it everyone!!!!

[heart broken]

2006-05-18T22:39:00.000+08:00

In the past, i didnt really think a blog was neccessary and i never thought i would ever be blogging...But now i realize how impt it is to me...Life in jc is really really stressful... there is just too much work to do everyday...not juz hw, but cca matters, class matters, schl events, other nonsense competition....blah blah.

The thing that stress me out is actually my cca...I have never felt so useless, so insignificant in schl...though in Pl, guzheng wasn't really a cool cca which impress alot of pple but at least pl gz has 'standard' ' you shui zhun'...The gz tuan in my sch now is really CMI...so lousy dat i feel embarrassed to be in it...everytime i see how slack the teacher in charge is, how slack and incapable the conductor is, how inefficient the members are....all i can do is to shake head...Dun say i din try to "save" the cca...personally i think have devoted alot of time and energy into the cca such that i have neglected my studies, such that my subject teachers get quite pissed with my ignorance on the subject's topics(thats wad my intuition tells me...as in i infer frm the way they look at me and the frequency of asking me qns)...my life is so skewed!! You may think that the solution to all these problems is to 'dun bother' with the cca..but let me tell you, i strongly believe that being a DSA student, i have the obligation to contribute to the schl through the cca...
That's why i have been staying back in sch till 8.30pm everyday to plan for the concerts, to help the inexperienced j1 catch up with the rest...to encourage pple to come back for extra practise to bush up their skills...and so on. Was actually planning to join the exco...but now i feel so dishearted to join, coz i foresee 'even worst' situation ahead... One more complain abt the cca...some inexperienced j1 learn really slow...sigh...though its not really good to comment abt others...but seriously arh...i think they are a little of a burden...Currently im very busy because im ordered by my conductor to coach a newcomer so that she can join in the performance...and all these has to be done in 2 weeks time...that means that i got to teach her frm the basics to the reading of scores to the fingerings etc etc...i alr told the teacher that it is not really wise to include her in the performance because the quality of the music wun be good... but she seems to see no problem with that...haiz...i dun noe wad esle can i say so all i can do now is to stay back in sch whenever possible, to teach the newcomer... Anw, let me summarize, im really emotionally and mentally drained!!!

Next up, let me talk abt my studies...physics used to be my stronger subject(dats how i personally feel...if u all dun agree, den juz ignore this sentence) anyway, i think my physics is in a terrible state. I think even my physics teacher thinks so such that if i were to tell him that i have gotten an A1 for physics in 'O's, his jaw wld drop wide open"How can that be?! A1? u must be kidding....there is no link at all btw wy and A1 for physics" sigh...wad tragic life i have...

Got difficulties finding 'zhi ji' in my schl...i think nobody understands me...maybe im too weird to be understood...i dun noe...actually i dun think dat im weird lor...haiz...im weird to u all because i have yet find sb who is quite similar to me in terms of the way we think...actually u all are weird to me too...juz because im the minority doesn't mean im weird.......
nvm...at least i think im accepted by u all....and i noe u all like me too!! haha...(zi lian-ing)

Juz realize im quite a loser...coz im not good in academic, not good enough asthetically, not good at maintaining relationship(as in public relation), no leadership qualities, not brainy enough, dun noe how to manage my time, especially bad at public speaking, no fashion sense(commented by seying and sometimes jeanie, shi tian says that too sometimes), no looks...all of you better den me lar.. Firstly sylvia is so good at drawing and she can interact with pple very easily. Jeanie has good fashion sense and is brainy, plus good at public speaking(which is very essential when go to work). Shi tian is brainy, got fashion sense, good at academics, got looks, got leadership qualities. Fanny can dance salsa, can dance ballet, can play piano, got fashion sense( at least better than me), noes how to deal with long hair, good at interacting with pple, good at making dessert, is more courageous than me(though she cries often, she never fail to stand up frm any kinds of failures, whereas im so damn timid, never dare to face reality...sobz

Ok enough of sad stuff.. A good news for jie mei men...hey i think im straight already!! coz on my latest list of eye candy, only one of them is a girl...the rest all guys...haha...lol...i got influenced by some 'sun2you3' in my sch, who always talk abt her eye candies...

To Yixian: Hey i really miss you alot! i miss the times we played gz together, the times when we laugh as we play, the times we make the same mistake together and get stared by tsb...haiz wonder if you will see this msg...but anw, hope you are doing well over there...

wy

2006-05-12T23:12:00.000+08:00

So glad to see everyone blogging. Well, my life in tj is the same as everyone. Hmm..........i'm not the only one in this world who is stressed so i have to work hard and do well! June common tests r coming soon and there goes my holidays.Hiaz....It's always easier said than done!

Anw, really thanx for everybody's concern, very glad to have u all around to jia you with me.Oh..and Jeanie, Sylvia is going for the dance concert so i take it as u r going too k? Any objections u can sms me!=p

Notice Board!

2006-05-06T00:35:00.000+08:00

Wow! been quite some time since i entered our username and password to get to this page...
Nothing much to blog about of the late.. my life's just drifting like a unguided log in the river, going where the waters lead.

But I've been diligently checking the blog DAILY for all your entries, living my life through the window your entries open up. Brightening and filling my empty days with all your "sufferings" and joys. I miss school, having classmates, the recesses and lunchbreak, bitching about teachers, complaining about tests, gossiping about Ms A and Mr B... so on....
I'm really saying all these not because I don't comprehend the agony of failing assignments, horrible timetables, the disgusting and yet endless reports and writing to hand up by the worst of deadlines, with every teacher insisting that you should place their subject as the sole focus of your world and very existence. I DO, truely and do feel with every portion of my heart the pain you all are going through... and I WILL swear with the most vulgar and fearsome of curses at those who cross anyone of you....
Above all these, I still do miss school and the group of you. Perphaps its just the hormones... I'm not sure, been cutting my blood capillaries in a fit of depression again... But well.. life just goes on until the heart stoping pounding one day. Don't it? And trust me, mates. There will be this day sometime down that alley when we look back and think these torments are merely one grain of sand in the scorching desert. Didn't we think that our life is SO OVER in sec school when the tests overwhelm us and the wave of activities take us on a rough ride at the ocean. Remember the times when we complain endlessly about how tough the going and A Maths sums get and we are SO going to FAIL ... But in the end none of you did.... so its just a process and complaining about it makes the holding on a little easier, really! (So moral of the story: do blog more.. to WY: the opportunity cost of blogging is intangible, and the joy of getting it out of your system with your 3 other sisters cursing at the teachers in your bid: PRICELESS!)

Time has been made in a very special way in human perspective. Looking forward is almost like waiting for the snail to travel around the globe. Yet when we look back it's like the guy(whoever he is) travelling the around the world in 80days.... So don't think too much about the length of remaining race pals, it will be over as soon as it started... At least you'll think so in the times of your A'levels.

Posted a few msgs at the Tagboard.... But i thought i was clogging it too much, so i'm re-put it here! with added details

To Fanny dearie: Jia You ok?! we're all rooting for u.... u can do it simply becoz i say u can... and I have been very SHEN abt predictions! see WY's DSA, ur SUPERB o'levels.. and well sylvia's niceness!!! I lLOVE YOU very much one k... (Even though unlike someone, i'm perfectly straight) So must feel HAPPY about it and forget all your troubles for 10secs everytime you remember that.

To WY(whom i dare not add any "dear" or "darling" i guess you all know why la...): dont mention it la.. (glad you liked the flowers) would do the same for ALL of u.. even if it means listening to u belittle urself, even though I'm freakin' impressed and jealous of ur talent!!! So touched you praised me!
Here's what occured in my room when i read: "i just realise i have a very sweet friend..."
my weight before reading: 36kg
my weight after:est. 1kg... i turned into a balloon(not sure whether air weighs that much though) and floated right into the celling... OH.... don't need to feed my ego la...! even if we all know it;s the truth you are stating..

To Sylvie darling: dont worry abt ur tests la.. u've all been through it before.. rmb the times when we sit in PL canteen complaining abt how many of them we've have. You've been through it and survived beautifully and will continue to do so.... your boat rocky nvm, I give you swimming float then you can bathe in the water and without worries! As for PE.. hee hee it'sgood for health(now that sounds like something your mum might say!) ... even though i've never done it (dont' punch me for gloating, it's human nature)... But well see, I'm the most unhealthy one!
And OOhh... I LOVE SCANDALS, almost as much as I love you all... Can't help it, being female and with my XX chromosomes, it's just 2nd nature.

BUT!!
To all my JIE-MEI men: now where's your OWN scandal and my JIE-FU!!!!!!!!! I want Jie-Fu or Mei-Fu(i'm seriously not pickly about this)..... I'm so bored at home... PLEASE. PLEASE!!!! i'm pleading and imploring all of you with my knees kissing my newly polished floor(sense my sincerity yet?!) GET ME SOMEONE I CAN BULLY AND BLACKMAIL for items with information about you gals... I promise to share the loot i get! So i'm expecting news soon right!!! I REALLY HOPE YOU PPL GET THE HINT!!! I mean think about it! There's perks to it.. think if he's in your school or also a JC student.. preferably one who's gd at being one... YOU can get tuition and NOTES, and there's added reason to study.. I mean is there a better dating place than getting more accquainted together with your school library it's residents(the reference books).... Consider this: the opportunity cost is minimum compared to it's benefits(or whatever you ppl call it in the "chim"-alogy of econs)!!!

The above is from your lovely, bored to tears, doesn't sleep till wee hours, depressed and perky, changable and moody, cute<-but thinks its an insult, exhausted from dance class, looking forward to archery class tmr,dying to hear more from you... SISTER: JEANIE<-NO! I'm not a nun.. reallie! i love my materialistic lifestyle too much to be one...

2006-05-04T21:57:00.000+08:00

wahahaha!
i just read the last entry by wenying dear..=)
ur sch life seems terrible.
as u can see. mine is not any better.
ive never ever draeded sch like now.
in fact.....i've always loved going sch. ok find me crazy or whatever...-_-""
wy...dun worry about gp la...we did a compre test recently.
our teacher said that our class's averaging mark is only 4.5/25. ya. and that's inclusive of summary. see?
we're all in the same rocking boat.
econs is totallly...irritating.-_-" bla bla bla...im having an in class assignment next week. die le.
gonna have geog, econs and math test.

and ya btw. cause ur dear friend eher has expectedly failed inclined for mock test, she's put into the 's' paper group...my whole body is aching now. one of the most tiring pe elssons ive had in such a long time la...
and run run run....do push ups do situps do backraisers do crunches do dips. gosh. it's on repetitive mode somemore.. my arms are aching. and my tummy hurts when i laugh too much
how sad.
sighs. too long nevr run le.

my mum is crazy about da chang jin now
she watched it everyday.
wah. nice meh?
anyways. seems that im the one crapping endlessly here.....hao jie mei men..must keep me updated wor!!!

i really gotta work on my gpp le....-_-
forget about maths
i wanna sleep.

sylvia=)

2006-05-04T21:33:00.000+08:00

hey hey hey...
im finally back home..gosh."
the interview today was grrrr..-_-' dont talk about it... sylvia here is just so shi bai whe it comes to such things.

school is just sooooooooooooooooooo irritating nowadays.
bla bla bla...doing stupid things..meeting the most unreasonable teachers i've eevr met..
learning a bunch of senseless things.
fanny. i cant really understand how u feel! dont worry man!!! but u scared me again today!!!!!!
we'll just all jiayou tgt.=)
2 years. very fast one la!!!
luckily i still have u and winne to ramble to!!!=)

i tink im seriously retarded. it seems that culture shock has only set in now, the people here are still really nice..=), just that...i kinda miss pl=) met ruoyi and serene for winne's guitar concert last fri...hahha...they've not changed one bit!!!!!=) still as lame as ever-_-"" hehez..and jingyi was just complaining to me some horribly horrible psychotic tutor she's having.
poor thing.

scandals galore!
esther is still the same....just that daryl has finally told her how he felt. hahas. complications and misunderstandings...it's a long story.
jingxy is just oh so in love now. cant imagine tha guys can actually move on so quickly.
he's a totally changed person now cause of his new "target"
he has stopped swearing for two days. treated ngoh hiang to us. bought wenyuan and i ice cream. offered to carry cheryl's bag. bleah.
and for once, we can actually manage to hear our own voices in his prescence.-_-"
unbelievable.
he has not said any swear words for the past two days...i bet the cant hold on for long.=)
leopard never changes its spots!=)

hahs! gotta work on my gpp le
sickening math to do ltr.
i just feel like sleeping...-_-""
yawns!

gdnite
sylvia=)